alright i think i'm ready to speak on it now. here's what happened when i reported my sexual assault of 2017 to uc merced's title ix office in 2018.

around oct/nov of 2017 (can’t remember the date), i was sexually assaulted by my then-bf hector flores. he’s class of '21, a mechanical engineering major. it took me a year to report the incident to ucmpd and title ix, as i was suffering from severe ptsd and depression.

ucmpd recorded both of our accounts. they even got me to call him to get him to confess, which he did by saying sorry. they submitted a report to merced’s district attorney. my case was denied due to lack of evidence but i'd rather have him expelled than in jail.

beginning oct. 2018 my case was investigated by vanessa hauser. she was nice, answered my e-mails asking about where we were during the process. however, i did request a new investigator bc she forgot to file my case with student conduct at the end of spring 2019 until i...

...reminded her beginning of fall 2019. jim o’connell was assigned to my case, but at that point the investigation was completed by hauser. he told me it was submitted to the office of student conduct and then i got the email about a month later.

as it turns out i waited a year and a half for nothing. the report said that my claims were not substantiated. i've talked to someone from student conduct that said "that doesn't mean it didn't happen", but she doesn't realize that that's pretty much what they're saying.

TW: SA. my case is tricky bc although he did confess, the issue is if he thought he had consent at the time. even though i clearly said no the first time he reached for my pants, and froze when he reached the second. we had only dated for three weeks. i didn't know what to do.

the investigator dismissed my offer to get her records from my therapist, who diagnosed me with ptsd a few months after the assault. she also forgot to file my case in time. and even though he confessed to it (which hardly happens!) title ix and student conduct don't give a shit.

so now i have to continue fighting for myself by contesting the report. i'm frustrated, sad, but most of all, tired. if this was a just system i wouldn't have to. i started a community org, am involved in two others, school starts next month, and now i have to deal with this.

the only thing i want is to not graduate with him. i made it clear that i wanted some sort of consequence if i was the one who had to live with this terrible thing that ruined my first two years at ucm. i know what happened to me and so does he.

pinning this thread in case it helps somebody