THREAD ABOUT MY BELIEFS AND RESEARCH

I have always been interested in writing, philosophy, politics, esoteric knowledge, religion, conspiracy theories, paranormal activity, dreams, past lives, psychedelics, and #truth (at least trying to discover it).

My mother is a devout #Catholic and I was raised Catholic. My father read Stephen King books and despised organized religion. My upbringing was confusing but I was forced to see two sides to everything.

The house I grew up in was purchased from a #satan worshipper and one of the bedrooms was painted black. I later learned that the house allegedly had fetuses buried in the walls during their #darkarts parties. The house was built on an Indian burial ground.

My mother had our house blessed by priests when we would leave on vacation. We had all of the typical #paranormal events; tv would turn on and off, objects would move, physical touches and my mother and guests would see #ghosts in our hallway.

My parents tried to sell the house for 13 years. We finally moved and closed that strange chapter in our lives. That is where my interest in strange things started. The friends I had growing up didn't have these experiences.

My grandfather was Sicilian and although it was assumed he was affiliated with the Omaha #mafia, no one in the family discussed it. Everyone called him "Sammy the barber". He always gave me a $20 bill when I saw him.

My grandfather was a bookie and horse groomer for the Kentucky Derby. A lot of money involved in that operation. He always gave me and my brother a haircut when we would visit him twice a year. He was so great to us; I always wonder about his #mafia ties.

I have #Freemasons in my family and they are wealthy. They are the 1%. I can't say who they are but I've heard interesting things, from time to time. So now, you can see how my life and interactions has shaped my curiosity for the hidden things in life.

#Research is difficult. It takes time. It takes patience. You have to read many angles. You have to read a lot. You can't just read one book and run with it. You must get all sides. I write based on numerous resources and occurrences.

When I started my YouTube channel, I was bombarded with messages, (I still am), of people claiming to be involved with the government. They send me "intel" and "info that will help me". Sometimes it fucks with my head. Sometimes it throws me off.

I will say this: I'm tired of having a fatalist attitude. Being consumed with the #Blacknobility and #Jesuits makes me feel hopeless. Like we are all fucked and there is nothing we can do about it. And that #Covid_19 and masks are leading us to slaughter.

I have been really hard on #Qanons but they are the only ones remaining hopeful. That is a better head space. The evidence for government corruption, pedophelia, bizarre celebrity/politician behavior is overwhelming. I do credit Q for opening the discussion.

I want to see justice for the misery this #coronavirus has brought to our lives in 2020. I have to believe something good will come from this. Nothing makes sense to me anymore.

I've been really hard on #Trump too. I was angry when I saw him in the slave mask. It is clear we are at war and I just have to trust he truly has our country in his best interest. How do we go on as a country if he doesn't?

Whatever is going on right now is fucking crazy and arguably the strangest time in history, but there will be an end to this. I hope all treasonous people get what they deserve.