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i’ve decided that from today i am going to start a little food diary/journal her and make it out of this thread. My mental health has been really really shit and it has really taken a toll on my physical health and my eating habits
For quite a while i’ve only been eating 1 meal a day and kept vomiting to the point where i’ve lost weight and almost fainted and collapsed during soccer the other day. I’ve been talking to my counsellor and now i realise wednesday was a really big wake up call for my eating
In order to better my mental health i first must take care of my eating. So by doing this, it’ll not only help keep myself in check but also enable others to help keep me in check if I am unable to do so. This is my first step into recovering. I hope i am able to get through this
A big part of the reason why I didn't eat was bcs I thought I deserved to not eat. I know it seems so counterintuitive but I genuinely thought that I deserved the pain from not eating. But now I can see that that’s not the case and that I do deserve to eat and heal and be happy
So yeah, my goal for the meantime is to eat at least two meals a day or at the very least two meals worth of food. Once I can consistently do that then I will try to move on to eating 3 meals a day when I am ready.
I will be doing this until I start eating properly again and probably a little afterwards just to make sure I stick to eating properly. Wish me luck guys :)
Entry #1
23/07/20
Dinner:
Yesterday I vomited after eating dinner most likely as a result of trying to eat too much so today I ate half of what I usually eat. It was a bit of rice and chicken. By the end I felt a bit bloated and had feelings of wanting to vomit. I am okay though
23/07/20
Dinner:
Yesterday I vomited after eating dinner most likely as a result of trying to eat too much so today I ate half of what I usually eat. It was a bit of rice and chicken. By the end I felt a bit bloated and had feelings of wanting to vomit. I am okay though
Entry #2
24/07/20
Breakfast:
I felt shit when i woke up and i tried eating but i couldn’t manage to stomach much of anything down. However I did manage to eat like a handful of popcorn which was my leftover lunch from yesterday. Perhaps my body isn’t ready for breakfast yet.
24/07/20
Breakfast:
I felt shit when i woke up and i tried eating but i couldn’t manage to stomach much of anything down. However I did manage to eat like a handful of popcorn which was my leftover lunch from yesterday. Perhaps my body isn’t ready for breakfast yet.
Entry #3
24/07/20
I just had a banana for lunch that is all. I had other packed lunch to eat but I didn’t eat it bcs I wasn’t feeling too well.
24/07/20
I just had a banana for lunch that is all. I had other packed lunch to eat but I didn’t eat it bcs I wasn’t feeling too well.
Entry #4
24/07/20
Had some rice and eggs and it was a decent size proportion and i’m proud that i didn’t feel shit after eating. progress!!
24/07/20
Had some rice and eggs and it was a decent size proportion and i’m proud that i didn’t feel shit after eating. progress!!
Entry #5
25/07/20
Breakfast:
My parents didn’t tell me I was gonna be fasting today so I ended up scoffing down a lot of food to compensate for missing lunch. That was a big mistake. My chest really hurt and I almost regurgitated everything. I didn’t tho and i’m okay now
25/07/20
Breakfast:
My parents didn’t tell me I was gonna be fasting today so I ended up scoffing down a lot of food to compensate for missing lunch. That was a big mistake. My chest really hurt and I almost regurgitated everything. I didn’t tho and i’m okay now
Entry #6
25/07/20
Dinner:
Broke my fast and ate some chicken schnitzel with rice and egg. I actually managed to eat a lot more than I thought I would. It still wasn’t nearly as much as I would usually eat but regardless I am glad that I was able to eat that much
25/07/20
Dinner:
Broke my fast and ate some chicken schnitzel with rice and egg. I actually managed to eat a lot more than I thought I would. It still wasn’t nearly as much as I would usually eat but regardless I am glad that I was able to eat that much
Entry #7
26/07/20
Breakfast:
I didn’t eat a whole much, just a small plate of rice and eggs. Wish I could have eaten more but shit happened ://
26/07/20
Breakfast:
I didn’t eat a whole much, just a small plate of rice and eggs. Wish I could have eaten more but shit happened ://
Entry #8
26/07/20
Lunch:
I’m at Geoffrey’s house and being able to eat with their family on their dinner table definitely helped my motivation to eat so that was nice. I had a small bowl of rice and some beef and chopped up bits of lamb.
26/07/20
Lunch:
I’m at Geoffrey’s house and being able to eat with their family on their dinner table definitely helped my motivation to eat so that was nice. I had a small bowl of rice and some beef and chopped up bits of lamb.
Entry #9
26/07/20
Dinner & Breakfast:
Forgot to do a log last night. Had some noodles and sausage it was exquisite. This morning I ate some cereal and fuck it’s been a long time since i’ve eaten cereal kn the morning. The cereal was called
H O N E Y N U T
26/07/20
Dinner & Breakfast:
Forgot to do a log last night. Had some noodles and sausage it was exquisite. This morning I ate some cereal and fuck it’s been a long time since i’ve eaten cereal kn the morning. The cereal was called
H O N E Y N U T
Entry #10
27/07/20
Lunch:
Didn’t get to eat lunch today :( no food :(
27/07/20
Lunch:
Didn’t get to eat lunch today :( no food :(
Entry #11
27/07/20
Dinner:
Had some steak and chips today! And I managed to eat seconds! First time i’ve been able to eat seconds in more than a month i’m really proud of myself
27/07/20
Dinner:
Had some steak and chips today! And I managed to eat seconds! First time i’ve been able to eat seconds in more than a month i’m really proud of myself
Entry #12
28/07/20
Breakfast:
No breakfast today unfortunately :(
28/07/20
Breakfast:
No breakfast today unfortunately :(
Entry #13
28/07/20
Lunch:
Had some toasted tuna and cheese :D
28/07/20
Lunch:
Had some toasted tuna and cheese :D
Entry #14
29/07/20
Dinner and breakfast:
I had some rice and taco chicken for both dinner and breakfast. It was actually the most fulfilling breakfast i’ve had in a while
29/07/20
Dinner and breakfast:
I had some rice and taco chicken for both dinner and breakfast. It was actually the most fulfilling breakfast i’ve had in a while
Entry #15
30/07/20
Lunch Dinner and Breakfast:
I had some kaarage chicken yesterday and that made me pretty full however I did not eat anything for the following dinner and breakfast which i’m pretty bummed about :(
30/07/20
Lunch Dinner and Breakfast:
I had some kaarage chicken yesterday and that made me pretty full however I did not eat anything for the following dinner and breakfast which i’m pretty bummed about :(
Entry #16
31/07/20
Dinner and breakfast:
I had beef and chicken for dinner and for breakfast I had the same. I’m fasting today so I won’t be having any lunch
31/07/20
Dinner and breakfast:
I had beef and chicken for dinner and for breakfast I had the same. I’m fasting today so I won’t be having any lunch
I think i’m gonna stop this thread for now. I think my eating has been getting better and i’m consistently eating 2 meals a day. I might continue if things get bad again.
