Thread by @DonnyChago, So..I want 2 do a PhD in psych2study grief in Span-speaking immigrant [...]

So..I want 2 do a PhD in psych2study grief in Span-speaking immigrant families. Bc of my fam's experience. Bt the > I research it, the > I feel like I'm consigning myself2school aka not earning $ aka my pops/sis have2wait even longer & I already took2long4mymom&pointisimspiraling

Ngl I wanted to share this aspiration once I had my application ready to go and whatnot but fxck dude this shxt really isn't fair and I had to share that. I'm so resentful about this I'm ngl. Another of those idk who/what even to be mad at tweets..

Update: Reached out & was able to set up a call w someone going into their 1st yr in their PhD. They message me saying "oh just a heads up for tomorrow's call, I'll be calling from this number: ____"

Iykyk & this person....k

Praying I keep finding more down ppl like this

Got a call from a job I applied to with UC Davis's Early Psychosis program.

I responded really well to their impromptu 10 minute interview, y'all. I'm hoping to get a call back sometime next week. C'mon paid research experience

Radio silence from them so i called & they're gonna get back to me once they know what's going on.

I really hope this one is the one bc the other position I applied to (I swear to you that interview was 5 star, dude idk what happened) rendered another rejection (after I f'd/u!)

Another day, another 'we regret to inform you"

I had a goal at the beginning of this month that I would have a job offer by my birthday. Being knocked back this time feels different. I still take failure personal.

Ni modos, no nos queda otra. On to the next one

Latest update: I gotta be in this for the long haul if imma do this the right way. I think I'm gonna do a Mph/MSW to transition into a psych PhD. Or not, idk. But the way I'm planning my entire 30s is just...whew. better I don't think abt it lol

I just got off a call w a professor who could potentially fight for me when they're deciding to accept 4 their msw/PhD program. Nicest guy in the world.

But I haven't gotten a gut punch like that in a while...

He read through my stuff. Said I was real competitive for the msw. What was my research exp though?? And that's when I was reminded that I'm not the student they're looking for.

Again, super welcoming guy. Said outright "I still wouldn't dissuade you bc.."

But that showed me how gatekeeping in academia goes down. I gotta b my strongest advocate. No 1s gonna stick their neckbout 4 some kid who's analyzed what caused the rupture of their family life & wants 2 leverage research 2 prevent it....unless they've been in a lab.
Too risky

My partner hit me w this and it was wild

It angers me and saddens me to see academia devalue you and you haven't even applied yet.

Imma keep it pushing though. They're gonna read this fee-waivered application gd it.

Latest update:

Officially submitted to UC Berkeley w fee waiver :')

Will submit to Ookla tomorrow bc I'm just gonna take @crisechepal's advice and try & enjoy today's victory.

Wanna no smthn funny??

UCLA needs transcripts from my undergrad which is....UCLA.

But they can't get them electronically bc they use a company called SOPHAS which is in.....Massachussets. So now I gotta mail them from UCLA to MA....so they can b reviewed....at UCLA

So tell me why I got an email from the department saying they don't have my transcripts and this may impact my admission if they're late..

"Can you please get a copy of your transcripts"

"ummmm....Can't You?!?!"

Btw i worked it out w the SAO.
Also, since I've been kinda untidy w this thread: https://twitter.com/DonnyChago/status/1366927454393171968?s=19

https://twitter.com/DonnyChago/status/1366927454393171968?s=19

Today I talked to a grad student and they confirmed that my intuition about that professor I said was so discouraging & showed me what gatekeeping can look like in academia, yeah those impressions were on point. LMAO allat time they were talkin' that "non-Trad students like us"

I might still work w them tho bc it's never personal, strictly business

Honestly, the only way i end up back in LA rn is UCLA giving me the wild all expense paid GOFP+ package & i don't see that happening this late in the season since I haven't even heard back from them so yeah hmmmmm Cal methinks
Gonna start these fellowship applications tonight