I HAVE SPENT Rs 1,61,800 SO FAR TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF MY MENTAL HEALTH.

TW: anxiety, depression

Now that I have your attention with all that clickbait and all caps yelling, read this #thread.

TL; DR: WE NEED A BETTER HEALTHCARE SYSTEM!

(1/n)
Taking care of your mental health is really important. And really expensive.

Why? Because healthcare in India sucks. (2/n)
I am a straight, upper caste, middle class, cishet woman - putting this out there in the beginning just so that you have context.

I am privileged enough to be able to afford healthcare but it is still a LOT. (3/n)
Ok, let& #39;s talk some numbers.

I have been in therapy for 1 year and 11 months. I have dealt with anxiety pretty much all my life. (4/n)
I started seeing a therapist in 2018 after spending big part of a solo vacation in tears, not knowing why I was crying or feeling anxious.

First major anxiety attack happened at a hostel in Khajuraho. (Beautiful place btw. Do check it out) (5/n)
1. Finding a therapist is not easy
2. Not necessary the first (or second or third) one you find will be a good fit for you.
(6/n)
3. You don& #39;t see & #39;results& #39; for like months. Therapy is like a marathon. You have to keep doing the work. In my case, it took almost 9 months before I realised that growth for me was being able to recognise some of my triggers. (7/n)
4. Going from one therapist to another is too damn exhausting because you don& #39;t get to TL;DR your life there. You have to start from scratch every single time. Thankfully I didn& #39;t have to do that and got lucky the first time itself. (8/n)
Let& #39;s talk money now. Most therapists in a city like Delhi charge between 1000 rs to anywhere up to 4000 rs for an hour-long session.

When I started, my therapist used to charge 2000 rs/session. 4 sessions in a month for a year = 4 x 12 x 2000 = Rs 96,000

(9/n)
After that I took a break for 8-9 months and when I went back in August 2019, the cost/session was Rs 2200. This time I decided to do two sessions/month. So till now (my most recent session was yesterday), I have spent -- 2 x 12 x 2200 = Rs 52,800

(10/n)
Total amount spent in therapy so far = Rs 1,48,800

(damn! this is the first time I& #39;ve calculated this.)

Btw, this doesn& #39;t include the cost incurred to travel to the therapist& #39;s clinic and back.

(11/n)
Don& #39;t get me wrong, it has helped me a LOT. I can& #39;t imagine what I would& #39;ve done without therapy.

(12/n)
My very special friend anxiety usually brings another friend to the party every now and then. That friend is insomnia. I have gone weeks without sleep. Like I can& #39;t sleep for more than 2-3 hours/day. At the same time my appetite decided this party wasn& #39;t cool enough for it.(13/n)
So, now I can& #39;t sleep or eat. And I LOVE food. I love to cook and I love to eat. So this was really messed up. Just thinking about food made me nauseaus.

It got a lot worse few months ago. There were other things too that I am not getting into right now. (14/n)
I figured I need to do something at least about the sleep. So I went to a general physician. (I am too much of a fattu to try to get pills without a prescription)

TBH I just wanted sleeping pills. Something that would let me sleep for at least 5-6 hours/day. (15/n)
The GP was concerned and asked me to go to a psychiatrist.

Now finding one during the lockdown was super fun. But a few friends told me about someone who is known to be pretty much the best. (and they were right.) (16/n)
Now, let& #39;s talk money again. I booked an online consultation. Cost/consultation: Rs 3500.

He asked me to get tests done. Cost of that: Rs 6500.

And then a follow up after two weeks: Rs 3000.

Another followup scheduled after three weeks. (17/n)
So far, I have spent Rs 13000 on this (apart from therapy). Thankfully the meds are cheap.Don& #39;t get me wrong. It is really helping (A LOT) and the psychiatrist is really fucking good. Again completely worth it. can& #39;t stress enuf on how grateful I am that I can afford it. (18/n)
And of course there are cheaper options available out there but I wanted to go to someone who came with good recommendations because this shit is scary. like so scary. not gonna get into the stigma attached to pills.

So in total I have spent Rs 1,61,800 so far on mental health.
This doesn& #39;t include many other things that we do to try to make ourselves feel better. Thankfully retail therapy never really worked for me. tbh I can& #39;t afford it anymore in any case. (20/n)
OK so the point of this thread is not to get sympathy or make you feel bad for me. I am just fine and I am taking care of myself.

The point is to highlight how badly we need a good healthcare system that supports people who deal with mental health-related issues.
(21/n)
Most insurance policies don& #39;t cover visits to a therapist. If you can find one that does, please share link. I am serious. I am looking for one.

(22/n)
I can& #39;t stress enough on the fact that I can only afford to take care of mental health because of my immense privilege.

I am a straight, upper caste, middle class, cishet woman. Just in case you couldn& #39;t see the amount of privilege I am sitting with. (23/n)
For anyone who doesn& #39;t fit in these brackets, just finding a therapist who won& #39;t be an asshole alone is a big task. I am not gonna speak for anyone. But if you tag me, I will RT and try to amplify your stories.

(24/n)
WE NEED A BETTER HEALTHCARE SYSTEM (like now).

Please share and tag your elected officials.

(25/n)
Note: I am just sharing my experience. This thread doesn’t cover a LOT of issues like access to mental health, the stigma around it, education, etc. I can’t speak on a LOT of those issues and I’d rather amplify voices of those who can. Please tweet to me and I will RT. (26/n)
Some reading material: (27/n)
@ mental health professionals (MHP) who can afford to help people pro bono or at reasonable rates please tweet at me and I will RT. (n/n)
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