Japan has just denied my official request to be able to return to France to grieve my dad& #39;s death with family (if I leave Japan I can& #39;t return). I& #39;ve been feeling terrible since I missed out the funeral and wanted to be back for a week or two. It& #39;s time to leave Japan for good ?
Such a lack of empathy is horrible, the French Embassy brought me the news and they were baffled on how they treat their expat& #39;. So Japanese people can freely travel abroad but us as tax payers we are literally stuck in Japan.
Not to mention by the time I was supposed to be at the funeral, nobody was allowed to re-enter Japan so I needed to take the hard decison of not going as I would have been stuck in France, loose my job, my income, won& #39;t be able to pay my bills etc.
I& #39;ve been falling in a deep depression since then as I don& #39;t have a proper closure. Knowing I spent my grieve all alone, stuck in my flat during the state of emergency (I couldn& #39;t go out, see anyone, do anything). All like a nobody.
With my state my work nicely gave me 2 months off as I was not doing well and crying almost everyday. So I decided to chill somewhere remote (Okinawa) to slightly be better. What should I do more Japan to prove my distress ? Try the worst ?
It took them literally a month for a cold & #39;& #39; haha sorry nope& #39;& #39;. How can you possibly still like a country who treat you like you& #39;re just a stupid tourist despite your Long-term resident status ?!!!
Also, I stated them my mental state due to the impact of this situation but still having a mental breakdown (also with suicidal thoughts, yeah enjoy the fun) is not a good reason to allow being back to your country for a week.
All I wanted was to see his tomb and bring flowers to my dad. But sounds like it won& #39;t be happening...
Also, I consider Japan like my home so not being able to return home if I leave is a horrible feeling to have. Is now Japan my prison ? They are clearly stepping on my freedom.
Just for more details: my dad died on the 27th of April, I had 3 days to attend to funeral which was hardly possible at that time (state of emergency, nobody enter Japan etc.). I was told I won& #39;t be able to return if I leave. I made another request a month ago to grieve properly.
All I got was a & #39;& #39;sorry, funerals are over. Sorry sorry& #39;& #39; ... Conclusion: I can f*ck off.
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