Japan has just denied my official request to be able to return to France to grieve my dad's death with family (if I leave Japan I can't return). I've been feeling terrible since I missed out the funeral and wanted to be back for a week or two. It's time to leave Japan for good ?

Such a lack of empathy is horrible, the French Embassy brought me the news and they were baffled on how they treat their expat'. So Japanese people can freely travel abroad but us as tax payers we are literally stuck in Japan.

Not to mention by the time I was supposed to be at the funeral, nobody was allowed to re-enter Japan so I needed to take the hard decison of not going as I would have been stuck in France, loose my job, my income, won't be able to pay my bills etc.

I've been falling in a deep depression since then as I don't have a proper closure. Knowing I spent my grieve all alone, stuck in my flat during the state of emergency (I couldn't go out, see anyone, do anything). All like a nobody.

With my state my work nicely gave me 2 months off as I was not doing well and crying almost everyday. So I decided to chill somewhere remote (Okinawa) to slightly be better. What should I do more Japan to prove my distress ? Try the worst ?

It took them literally a month for a cold '' haha sorry nope''. How can you possibly still like a country who treat you like you're just a stupid tourist despite your Long-term resident status ?!!!

Also, I stated them my mental state due to the impact of this situation but still having a mental breakdown (also with suicidal thoughts, yeah enjoy the fun) is not a good reason to allow being back to your country for a week.

All I wanted was to see his tomb and bring flowers to my dad. But sounds like it won't be happening...

Also, I consider Japan like my home so not being able to return home if I leave is a horrible feeling to have. Is now Japan my prison ? They are clearly stepping on my freedom.

Just for more details: my dad died on the 27th of April, I had 3 days to attend to funeral which was hardly possible at that time (state of emergency, nobody enter Japan etc.). I was told I won't be able to return if I leave. I made another request a month ago to grieve properly.

All I got was a ''sorry, funerals are over. Sorry sorry'' ... Conclusion: I can f*ck off.