I've been doing a lot of thinking. When I start my first job at Warner bros 3 years ago I thought I had to grow up and start drawing things that would be more "professional" and stop making fanart for cartoons that have been dead for almost a decade. https://twitter.com/Kom0xhi/status/1283065507134881792

Drawing fanart was the only thing I was doing at that time. I struggled with the idea that in order to be a legitimate artist in the animation industry, to be respected by your co-workers/peers, and be a future cartoon creator, you have create your own original art and IPs.

I felt like I've pigeoned hold myself and I couldn't get myself out unless I cut the fanart cold turkey. I was ashamed by how obsessed I was about cartoons because a lot of art I made was weird, mostly cus of the crack ships and the crossovers that probably didn't make sense.

When I started working for Disney that anxiety only got worse because in my head this was THE company that was clean-cut family-friendly. I was busy working at the time but it was mostly the stress of trying to move on as a "professional" artist that had me stop posting art.

I tried the route of posting original art pieces and people really liked them but it honestly felt hollow to me. Making art with story or an emotion behind it is what really makes me happy. Fanart was the best vehicle for it because the shows already had that story built into it.

I was stuck. But then I started remembering that the whole reason I even wanted to work for Animation industries is so that I pitch my own original ideas. That when I really started thinking of all kinds of stories I wanted to make. Rockababy was one of the pitches I had.

Then I saw that 1st prize for the Webtoons contest was going to have their story animated into a 3-5 minute short so I thought this could be my big break and really put my soul into Rockababy to really prove to myself that I can do both! And make fanart of my own story!

I'm honestly so happy how Rockababy turned out but as I
was trying to get more eyes on it, I posted my old fanart because it was the quickest way to gather a bigger audience but then read everyone's responses to how much I've really had an impact on their childhood 7 years ago.

And seeing my coworkers support me made me realize I was stressing over nothing. I've even met my fans who are working for the animation industries and had bought my fanbooks of my crackships!!! Then I remembered I work for a CARTOON industry. OF COURSE there are others like ME!

So I'm at this point in my life that where there's no point of hiding it, what gets posted on the internet is probably gonna show up anywho, so I've just stopped caring how my past is going to reflect on me. and FUCK IT, I LOVE Cartoons there's no way of hiding that.

So I'm just gonna start posting more of my Old works here and probably new fanart when I get around to it. I can't post all of it but if you want to see the rest, it's at my Tumblr: C2ndy2c1d. If you guys feel weird about it feel free to unfollow me!