i dont know why i still question whether im actually faking my attraction to women and that jm actually straight when i feel gross about the prospect of ever being with men and absolutely in heaven when i imagine a girl touching my hand

most of my close friends are men and even though im completely content and happy with them remaining friends there's still a nagging voice in my head trying to conflate my platonic love for them with romantic and i haaate it

i dont really have a message for this thread except man it really does blow that misogyny fucks with your brain so bad that you cannot be friends with a guy without your brain melting in the process and that enforcing it with patriarchal systems is bad