i feel emotional again,, i’m honestly shocked at myself at how much ive grown. how much i’ve learnt. how much i’ve been given the opportunity to learn and become nicer/better/less close minded. i’ll forever be grateful for that. for the happiness i have today.

the fact that i can improve, and recognise things now. it’s really wondrous. i’m finally happy with myself about it. it’s been eating at me for months, and while it should’ve been because i was genuinely awful back then, i feel like i can breathe

i wish happiness for everyone i’ve hurt in the past, i take full action and responsibility for it, not because i don’t want to get hurt, because i’m genuinely sorry and have finally realised what i’ve done, and how much it’s hurt others. how i used to think was so bad.

i deeply apologise if this sounds guilt trippy, i don’t intend that and always want criticism on how to not act like that! i just feel like a whole different person. their anger is justified, their suffering is justified. i take responsibility of that.

i’m just really glad i’ve been given the chance to learn, grow, educate others and educate myself most of all. that’s all

those people never have to forgive me, and i now understand why. i dont hold grudges against them anymore, as it was foolish to anyways, since i was in the wrong. it only happened once, true, but it should never happen. i’m using it as a stepping stone to educate others on it.