Read on Twitter
me: “internet safety is important! be careful who you trust and interact with online!”
also me, when literally any person online interacts with me in a positive way: “I think of you as a friend now, I love you, I trust you completely, I would do anything for you
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also me, when literally any person online interacts with me in a positive way: “I think of you as a friend now, I love you, I trust you completely, I would do anything for you
this might sound like a sweet or wholesome thing on the surface, but it’s not actually a good or healthy way to be at all. I *know* it can be dangerous and naive for me to be so automatically trusting and to just assume the best of people
but I am a lot more sensible and self aware than I used to be, and at least now I’m more aware that I tend to be like this, so I can catch myself and remind myself to slow down a little
also I was talking about online interactions, but I actually tend to be the same way in real life and always kinda have been
this is part of why I got bullied and lied to and taken advantage of so much in primary and secondary school, because people knew I’d just assume the best of them, trust them, and go along with anything they said even if I suspected they weren’t being genuine
so now I *also* have a tendency to assume people are being sarcastic or trying to make fun of me or don’t actually like me.
which is almost completely contradictory to what I just said so idk how those things coexist but they do
which is almost completely contradictory to what I just said so idk how those things coexist but they do
though to be fair when I say “I” in contexts like this, I am just lumping myself and my other alters together as though we’re all just one person, so uh. that could somewhat explain this kind of thing lol
but it’s also true that it’s possible for one person to have contradictory emotions or conflicting traits at the same time, even though it sounds really unintuitive to me and I still don’t fully “get” how it’s possible
blah blah blah basically I intuitively perceive things in a black and white way despite rationally knowing it’s not always like that, and not even being like that myself
I went on such a fucking tangent here this thread is all over the place oh my god
