Have you ever been asleep wishing you never wake up, that’s how living with depression feels. Have you ever been tired & the only strength left is the knowledge that death brings permanent peace, that’s how dealing with suicide feels.

No one wakes up & decides today is it, I’m going to make 10 other people miserable by taking my own life, it’s a journey that leads there. When Sizwe Bansi said it’s only in death, a man finds peace & can truly be free, my teenage self felt that.

If you have never lived with fear & anxiety every second of your life, you’ll never understand having the strength to fight, getting through everyday sane, while staying alive is an emotional/mental gift everyone isn’t privileged to have in abundance.

The minutiae variance of fear is crippling, imagine it in over dose. I’m so triggered. I’m tired. I really am.

#ripIZU Nwoke oma. Udo eruteala ma ikpe ga na-aga n'ihu