i’m kind of uncomfortable when people apologize to me... is there anyone else?

and i’m not talking about the “sorry i stubbed your toe” or “sorry i missed your call” i’m talking bout “sorry for treating you so shitty and and and”.... that makes me uncomfortable

because a spiritual journey also focused on forgiveness and releasing... but if i’m currently not ready to forgive someone for something, it’s like it makes me uncomfortable because i know i SHOULD but i just don’t yet..

and don’t get me wrong. forgiveness is never for the other person. it’s for YOU! i just think that for ME personally.... it’s like... thanks for your apology but WHY did you do that? WHY did you treat me like that? cast me away like that? step on/over me like that? i be sick.

this is all rooted in unpacking my emotions though, confronting them, dealing with them, and them letting them go. i also feel like i’m blame gaming and that’s not the case. i just really be confused at the behavior that created this apology cuz it’s like bro+

WHY did you do that in the first place? https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen"> but it’s my fault too for tolerating it... hence why forgiveness is for the SELF. y’all... i get the process , it just makes me uncomfortable, fr.