Processing my emotions around this week/the last month and a half, and I wanna discuss what I've been calling "decolonizing our thoughts" around money/capitalism.

Been getting called out lately for spending habits, and even went so far a few weeks ago to IG rant actual receipts.

It started shortly after my $1500 in booze got delivered, so I pointed out to folks that I also spent over a grand giving to friends injured during protests and sending 12-packs of CBD soda to various members of the squad.

Then this week, I bought a 75" TV… and more complaints.

Added to it, Tuesday night I went on a IG Live speed date with comedian Nikki Glaser; I brought up that lately I've been louder about white friends hitting up my Venmo/CashApp, a position I've shared here before: https://twitter.com/DrSixFingersEsq/status/1279701248480997376

And then I saw this tweet making the rounds on IG yesterday and shit just clicked so fucking hard for me… and here we are now in this thread…

Cuz make no mistake, I have no obligation to explain MY finances to anyone, but I can't help but over-explain. https://twitter.com/mixedseed/status/1175362174996373504

So let's start off with what I actually said on my date with Nikki. For most of y'all, it's nothing new, but this was my statement in full.

And folks were NOT having it… Shout out to those who did and actually tossed your boi some coins. Notice the first one tho… "I will not pay for friends." White folks don't respect or even acknowledge the LABOR that it is to be their "diverse" friend.

Emotional Labor is Labor.
All Labor should be Compensated.
THERFORE
Emotional Labor should be Compensated.

This is Intro to Philosophy 101 entry level statement logic. But the pushback is "I will not pay for friends" or "I thought you are an anticapitalist"

Dawg, every day of the week, smash all currency… I'm still the dude who wrote this in January 2018 IN A RECIPE BLOG!!!

Best scene in the entire Rick & Morty series is Rick turning the intergalactic currency from 1 of itself to 0 of itself. Go watch Season 1 Mr. Robot.

Side note: I'm discovering how heavily I rely on pop culture to relay messages. I'm *TRYING* to make this shit digestible to laypeople because I think academics is classist and a barrier to liberation.

Point remains: Money is a social construct and could disappear tomorrow.

So while I am staunchly against hoarding of wealth and staunchly for finding a new system of compensation for labor, we stuck with dollars and Wu-Tang said "Cash Rules Everything Around Me."

PAY PEOPLE FOR THEIR EMOTIONAL LABOR!

So then, let's switch the conversation to my exorbitant spending… wait! what's that? I already have AN ENTIRE THREAD on that??? Well, shit! I sure do! https://twitter.com/DrSixFingersEsq/status/1076007473683689472

But let's add to it, cuz I started writing that in Dec 2018, and since then we've had a global pandemic bring the economy to a screeching halt, which has also affected my little nest egg of #DeadMomMoney™

I had a chunk of cash tied up in stocks… when the market crashed in February, I lost about $13K. It scared the living shit out of me. I wanted to pull my remaining money, but luckily, my procrastinating Depression Brain waited til June and I recouped about $12K-ish give or take?

And THEN I pulled out all my money… I paid my roommate/landlord for the remainder of my lease, threw the rest in my money market acct for safe keeping.

And I've watched this country fucking implode over masks, schools, sports, and the economy.

Need I remind you?

MONEY IS A SOCIAL CONSTRUCT AND THEREFORE SO IS THE ECONOMY!

None of this shit is real… and we are dying/killing ourselves to save it as if we couldn't just press a pause button (or Mr. Robot couldn't switch the dollar to equal 0 of itself).

So I'm just sitting here, waiting for shit to fall apart. I have mine. I'm taken care of… I bought my year's supply of fancy booze all at once. Grace's TV died Monday; I got it after Grace died… but I had always planned to buy a big obnoxious TV, so I just delayed for 18 months

It drives me NUTS that folks treat me like I'm fiscally irresponsible. I'm not… I'm stingy as fuck WHEN I DON'T HAVE MONEY…

BUT HI HELLO!!!! I got $131k in #DeadMomMoney™ and have done sooooo much with it in the last year and half. I don't get enough credit for that, y'all.

I just don't give a shit about financial status symbols. I will NEVER buy a house… shit I let mom's house go into foreclosure, just like I told her I would do if she put my sister's name in the will back in Dec 2017. Guess I called her bluff?

When I die, I'll do it penniless.

Got into this convo with @AshQuakenbush the other day about my personal nihilism:

If NOTHING matters and this is really is the only life we get, no afterlife; we stuck on this rotting, dying planet… why the fuck wouldn't I live life EXACTLY how I'd want? THERE ARE NO RULES!!!

Western colonization and capitalism has rendered everything meaningless… Every day, we learn that there are no consequences to being supervillains cuz the majority of global white folks think they're the heroes that they painfully are NOT!

It truly is not my fault to live unapologetic and unbehooven to any person or institution. When I die, I will become forgotten stardust. Lemme live in the world you refuse to help fix.

AND ALSO… pay me for my emotional labor, cracka! hahahahahahaha

WHETHER I should be compensated for my emotional labor should not be determined on how I plan on spending that compensation. Homegirl I've been sorta dating since November tried lecturing me about fiscal responsibility Tuesday and I shut that down quick

A lot of y'all need to DECOLONIZE YOUR THOUGHTS AROUND CAPITALISM!!!! You doing a lot of social media activism for concepts you don't believe in just for clout, and fuck that…

I know my worth AND I will spoil the shit out of myself and those around me cuz that's SELF-CARE!!!

Folks believin they have any right to critique my spending is fucking laughable… Nigga, I'm just out here trying to survive the fucked up world your foredaddies stuck us with and you remain loyal to as it kills people darker than you.

Miss me with Fiscal Respectability Politics

Thank you for coming to my TEDTalk.

My venmo/cashapp are both $DrSixFingersEsq cuz the brand is strong! Enjoy your individual saturday evenings!

Also, shout out to @JMG_33 for recording the date, allowing me to have receipts for what I did and didn't say about paying me.