I hate oversharing but screw that, I've loved this group since 2015 and though I've stanned many groups since, none have ever felt like home, like family, other than seventeen.

they've literally helped me through so freaking much, I can't ever verbally express,, especially as someone who relies so heavily on music to cope with reality, I've spent countless nights in the embrace of their music, their words and their actions.

it's cringey, it's so fucking immature too, yeah I know, and I've always been incredibly selective of who I spend my affection on and it's often scared me just how much I loved these guys, and just how familiar they were to me.

but I let myself just,, adore them & let them be one of my main sources of comfort and happiness. they've really gotten me through so much, they've always released music just when I needed it, and at the most crucial points in my life so it had to be destiny, right?

again, the anxiety, hurt and invalidation me and my fellow desi mutuals had to face the past few days didn't come from them, it was from you toxic, blatantly racist lot that had your priorities messed up.

I've been on this freaking app for almost 7 years, this being my second acc, and I've never seen such outright disrespect, all in the name of kpop.

at the end of it all, I'll still support and love them but you've all made us associate such negativity with this fandom, made it feel like we're not welcome here so I don't think I'll be comfortable with continung to ult them. my overly active conscience simply wouldn't let me.

they've been my safe space for so so many years, I still don't really know what to do. honestly it's kinda taking me back to being pessimistic again,,, either way, please just remember you're human before you're a kpop stan,we all are. think before you bring your fingers to type.