I feel bad when I get in these moods where I just want to talk forever about every little thing and just, jump around in talks
I hate being this and fearing all my friends will get annoyed with me 1/?

Im afraid people will start criticising my every little word and say "you always make it about yourself" which I just, cant help!! I try my best, and read over what I say before saying it almost constantly but it always is at the back of my mind going 2/?

"stop making it about you, youre scaring everyone off" and I just, I cant. People think I had caffeine when Im like this and its not that!! Im genuinely this excitable and loud and talkative almost constantly its just constant fear of judgement 3/?

that makes me not talk as much as I want to. I wish I knew what the fuck was wrong with me, I want to know if what I have is ok and Im not broken?? I hate talking in my own home about what I love because my family treats my moments of happiness and rambles 4/??

as a joke. Constantly I hear "stop it, stop having fun!" and I know theyre joking but, I cant take jokes that well. It hurts. My family treats me like a 12 year old child and I hate it. I hate that I cant even ask for help 5/6

and here I am now jumping on every thing someone says. I dont want to feel self conscious about what I say, but here I am. Thanks family for making me feel like shit for wanting to talk about what I like. Now I feel like Ive been rude by taking over a convo again... 6/6