Ever since I discovered #acting , I've had an affinity to work with others in a creative space.

Yet, I also love coding

A few things I learned during the #100DaysOfCode challenge, is dedication. Community. Having heart, and following through.

Also,

Being kind to yourself.

It's tough.

Having a 9-5 job that sucks your soul.
Being full-time in school.
In debt, without a safety net.

I'm sure most of y'all are right there with me.

Everyone has their own journey.

I would LOVE to quit my job and quit school (again).

That would free up so much time, right?

Is that what I should do? Is that the equivalence of taking "risks"?

Am I "playing it safe"?

I ask myself this a lot.

I flick my thumb upwards, while scanning a seemingly endless blue ocean of text- sometimes gaining inspiration, other times growing a toxic mindset.

"Why aren't you that good yet?"

Comparision is the death of joy.

We hear all the time, to share your knowledge, and don't be afraid to fail!

That stuff is hella good advice.

I failed a lot in my life. So much to the point to where, the risk seems scary.

I'm no stranger to failure. No enemy to change. No adversary towards love or learning.

Yet making any new gamble paralyzes me.

Even this thread, it's a gamble.

Is this oversharing? Will someone relate to it? Is this a waste of time?

There's risk.

Then there's taking a chance.

Seizing your moment. When your life seems to form forks in the road. Which direction shall you take?

I don't think risk is quitting everything to chase one passion.

That's easy.

The "risk", is the process to get there.

It's the bills you may rack. The debt that piles up. The friendships, relationships, your own mental health, time, all of that- you risk.

Then, after when it's done...

You still fail.

Maybe that's why we do it anyway. To taste that brief chance of fulfillment. We all measure success in our own manner.

I believe, social media has played a part in defining what an acceptable level of success should be.

Hate to admit it, I got trapped in that too.

I also believe we can build a world where everyone can become fulfilled.

Success isn't determined by money or fame- it's the meter of your fulfillment.

What trees you won't sit under.

If money and fame are your success, that's awesome too! As long as you are fulfilled.

I have a feeling. We're reaching a point in our humanity.

We can begin to strive to where "risk" isn't necessary for one's fulfillment to just SURVIVE.

Where openness thrives and we teach each other through our mistakes.

Risk is inspiration for growth.

Call it foolish, hopeful, or silly.

If you disagree, that's okay!

If I'm wrong, I understand!

Through this chance, I'll risk brief uncertainty. I hope, that through this, you somehow find your moment and chance risk as well.

No matter how big or small the chance