I was once a victim of bullying

A thread;
Let's start from my face☺️
"Cactus" "Pinipig" "Marlou" and etc... Yan ang mga natatanggap ko na mga salita because of my acnes and yes I have alot of acne back then.
So here's my pictures with my acnes😊 So that time ultimong may make up na ako kitang kita pa rin yung mga acne ko and that time when they start calling me pinipig,cactus,and etc nawala yung self confidence ko non++
And yes you can see me laughing kapag tinatawag niyo ako ng ganon but deep inside i'm hurt. Sobrang sakit matanggap or marinig yung mga salitang yon.
I laught in public but pagkauwi ko sa bahay tsaka ko binubuhos yung luha ko dahil sa mga salitang yon. I also experience being back stabbed by some of my so called "friends" and yes nalalaman ko yung mga yon. And yes I have trust to those people but yon yung natatanggap ko++
From them. I also experience back then na may mga magtatanong sakin if magpaparetoke daw ako in the future but I always answer no kase that's the truth. I love myself but that time I lost that so called "love yourself" because of those words.
That time I always ask myself "bakit ganto ako?" "Bakit ako pa nakaexperience ng ganto?" And that time insecurities hit me. Yes naging insecure ako sa mga kaklase kong may clearskin/maganda.
I know having insecurities is not a good thing pero wala eh, tao lang din naman ako eh. And simula ng makatanggap/marinig ko yung mga salitang yon I always ask my Mom na ipacheck ako sa derma without knowledge that I'am experiencing being bullied na.
P.S. If hindi bullying ang tingin niyo sa naranasan ko well I'm sorry. Hindi man ako nasaktan physically, nasakatn naman ako emotionally.
Then kasabay ng panglalait sa mukha ko sumabay na din ang panglalait sa katawan ko.
"Tingting" "Skeleton" "Buto buto" and etc. That's what they judge about my body.
Sometimes tinatanong din nila ako if kumakain pa ba ako and yes I always eat, kung tutuusin nga eh kaya kong kumain ng 3-4 cups of rice especially sa Mang Inasal++
And again, tinatawanan ko lang yang mga sinasabi niyo kahit sa loob loob ko is nasasaktan na rin ako.
And yeah I also hear those words to my "friends". It might be look like a joke to them pero para sakin? Panglalait na yon kasi nasasaktan ako.
And yes, mabilis akong masaktan kasi soft hearted ako kaya you can also call me iyakin kase yon naman yung totoo eh. At my age until now sobrang iyakin ko and I hate it.
So ayon lalong dumami yung insecurities ko non and lalong bumaba yung confidence ko non but I don't show it in public kase lalo akong majujudge if I show it in public right?
Btw guys, wala akong pinapatamaan sa tweet na ito,,,I just want to share my story on how I overcome those experiences kase I know alot of people like me is experiencing being bullied
So next is syempre lahat naman tayo nagkakagusto sa isang tao right? Some may love you back but others will reject you because of your looks, and that is what I always experience back then.
Some will love me back pero hindi ko alam na linoloko lang pala ako HAHAHA or some people judges me that I'm a "gold digger" just because nagkagusto ako sa isang guy na may kaya. And that is not true! I'm not attracted to that guys just because he's rich or famous but because++
Of his attitude. And yeah sometimes I'am attracted by their attitude and sometimes sa looks. Btw, yung tinutukoy ko na guy is we're in a good relationship right now, we're friends and that's a good news😊
So marami pa akong natatanggap na mga salita whenever na macrucrushback ako ng nagugustuhan ko and yeah nasasaktan ako sa mga judge na nakukuha ko that's why I just always tell to those guys na its better kung humanap na lang sila ng ibang babae na kaya silang panindigan++
Kaya ko din naman sila panindigan pero sa sobrang sakit na mga salitang natatanggap ko pinapalaya ko sila kahit na gusto ko pa din sila. And yes I easily fall to other guys and isa din yon sa pinakaayaw ko sa sarili ko. Ang pagiging MARUPOK🙂
Dahil sa karupokan ko najujudge din ako ng iba and nasasabihan ng malandi or hindi naman ako mauubusan ng mga lalaki and that's true naman eh, di naman talaga ako mauubusan ng mga lalaki pero sorry ha? Eto kasi ako eh. Sorry kase marupok ako kaya sa tingin niyo is malandi ako
Ultimong sarili kong guy friends is nafafall ako dahil nga sa marupok ako🙂
So fast forward na,,,wala na ako masyadong natatanggap na panglalait ngayon or baka hindi ko lang alam na nilalait pa rin pala ako but to be honest? Matagal ko na silang gustong gantihan but I choose to be silence and calm kase I know na pag ginawa ko yon may masasabi nanaman++
Sila. That's why I choose to be silence na nga lang and I met this wonderful people(GPS&LDS and etc). They are always there for me and handang maging crying shoulder ko and then they are the people na tumulong sakin para bumalik ang self confidence ko and para mas unahin ko ang++
Sarili ko. And yeah this is me na today. I'am happy and marami na nagsasabi na ang laki ng glinow up ko.☺️
So yeah! I just wanted to say sa mga kaibigan ko or sa mga tao na tinulungan ako maging masaya, thank you because tinulungan niyo akong maging confident ulit. Thank you for staying by my side through ups and downs. Thank you for everything!!💗
So this is the part 2 of the video. Lol.🤪 So I wanted to share my glow up to everyone(even though I didn't glow that much)🤣
So to all people out there that is also experiencing being bullied, all I wanted to say is that ignore those people who are judging or spreading false rumors about you and just always stay positive and DON'T EVER end your life because of those bullsh*ts na ginagawa sayo ng++
Ibang tao dahil inggit lang sa inyo yon!! SO ALWAYS STAY POSITIVE AND DON'T FORGET TO LOVE YOURSELF FIRST BEFORE LOVING OTHER PEOPLE kase wala namang mawawala sayo if uunahin mo sarili mo eh😊 So yeah!! Cheer up and i love y'all!! Mwaaaa!!😘
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