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I remember he told me that he has no reason to communicate with me on a daily basis as his not reporting to anyone.
He said we are not in a corporate environment where we need to constantly send emails or what not.
Mans will go for about 2days without texting or calling until I did. I remember how I kept raising this issue and the conversation will end up with me being labeled as disrespectful.
I kept on apologizing because every time he would make me believe that I’m indeed disrespectful. I apologized for his silent treatment and him not having time for us.
A disagreement with a toxic partner turns into a huge argument creating bigger problems. Narcissists feel that everytime u raise your issues, you’re arguing.
I’m not saying I was perfect, nah. I had my own flaws too. He told me I wasn’t happy with anything. And I started believing it.
See, when someone keeps telling u that you’re ungrateful, u end up believing it. Or well not, but I ended up believing that maybe I was hard to love because I wanted to talk to him on a daily basis.
I ended up believing that I was disrespectful for always saying that he’s not emotionally there for me. Even physically. Mans would go for an entire month without seeing me and we are 17kms apart.
You end up having a different mindset about your self. That maybe you are just hard or difficult to love.
That made it so hard for me to leave because I was made to believe that I’m the one at fault. I always felt bad for leaving him because he made me believe that no man will tolerate me.
But we move right. I decided to apologize to him for all the times he felt disrespected and I also forgave myself for allowing him to mess with my esteem.
