It's just really hard to feel like things are ever going to go back to normal when the fascist president is testing his powers by sending border patrol agents who don't answer to local government to threaten us. They've set up snipers downtown.
Like feds in camo driving around in rental vans are abducting people off the street. Shit is honestly so fuckin scary here
me @ all my journalist mutuals: so shit is extremely fucked here and I think the president is testing rolling out federal officers against states that don't support his shit in November and like... I don't know what to do because shit is just really weird and fucked and shit???
I am not the most eloquent dude but uh they're kidnapping people in rental vans???
It is so hard to try to be normal in all this, to just go about my day and try to survive. I can't even begin to describe the cognitive dissonance that's required to just avoid freezing in terror for the entire day
Like I still need to do chores and make meals and do the regular day to day shit but sometimes I just remember "oh yeah they have snipers downtown and they're committing war crimes regularly and we're smack dab in the middle of white supremacist country" and just kinda freeze up
Also we are in the midst of another humanitarian crisis in Portland that I find really distressing. When I was homeless here a few years ago, there were a lot of us unhoused on the streets and today I am blown away by how many more unhoused people there are.
There will only be more people displaced onto the streets as the coronavirus pandemic and attendant unemployment crisis lead to waves of evictions. And the cops are incredibly violent to unhoused people.
Shit is getting real fucked up real fast and I'm worried for our city's most vulnerable populations
Things were always bad here but I guess I'm just trying to say, yes, it's gotten worse. It's gotten noticably worse. The wealth inequality. The police violence. The racism. The white supremacist gangs and the sharp, quiet, subtle but deadly racism of the liberals. It's worse.
I read that the police in Portland have been demonstrably more brutal against BLM protesters than anywhere else in the country. Think about that. We're tiny compared to places like NYC or LA but our cops have been more violent to the protesters. Shit is so fucked here
It's hard because I want to think about anything else but they're seriously fuckin just grabbing people off the street now like we have secret police in unmarked vans just down the street from like a bistro that's reopened like we're not mid-plague and like honestly I'm stressed.
I don't like cops and I don't like feds and I certainly don't like state snipers and I'm just stressed real bad
This is probably why I've had so much trouble responding to messages because like what am I supposed to say. If you want to know how I'm doing I'm just going to start linking to this thread. I am "getting by"
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