im so done. i cant take it.

i just got told that i cant even listen to kpop or bts if i dont do piano

bts and kpop are one of my ONLY sources that im still here today and happy. and now thats been taken away from me

they are the only reason i can cope. and now i cant even cope properly. i dont want to relapse

im not trying to be the person to attention seek but i just cant take it anymore.

i dont even enjoy doing piano anymore. this is so unfair. i hate it

whats the point

just an update on this thread from earlier
my mum told me that she only said that to make me do piano for 30 minutes.
what she said caused me to have a panic attack.

at least im free to listen to the people who give me strength and happiness right?