my ex: idk i might fuck around and shoot you and then myself
my ex: jk i never said that and won’t discuss it

months later

me: WTF WHY DID YOU BLOCK ME???
ooh this could be a fun thread.

me: are you sleeping with a subordinate again*
ex: you are insane for thinking that.
ex: okay i'm sleeping with her but i lied so you wouldn't get me fired. are you stalking me?
person posted multiple photos at his house on social media
* yes AGAIN this happened twice
me: ten years ago my friend took his life and it was pretty much a defining time of my entire adulthood
my ex: please stop talking about depressing shit, i can't deal with it. anyway i was thinking about killing myself, might do you first idk
once i went to pick him up from his friend's place because he spent the day there drinking while i was at work. i got there and he was on the porch holding hands with some girl. he introduced me to her and sarcastically "bragged" about the promotion i had gotten that week...
when we got in the car i asked him who she was and why he was holding hands with her and if they were together. he screamed at me the entire drive home, like "you are embarrassing yourself by acting this insecure" stuff like that. he also told me i was swerving (i was sober??)
he made me pull over so he could buy cigarettes. when we got home he told me he didn't want to talk about it anymore because i was being "crazy." after this he's denied the ENTIRE night ever happened and i made it all up
when his dog was a puppy he had diarrhea all over himself, his crate, the carpet :/ i started cleaning. when my ex got home from work he said he was too angry to clean and sat in the other room while i cleaned diarrhea out of the carpet
over holidays his entire family had a discussion about why private colleges are bad and liberal arts degrees are useless and anyone who has them has no skills. not only did he not defend me, i literally think he forgot that i was one of the people his family said was an idiot
another holiday visit his mother wanted to go take photos by a christmas display in their town and he told me we weren't gonna go and that i could take a shower and not get ready. 5 minutes before they left he changed his mind so i'm in the photos completely unprepared...
i went and took photos of their family, his brother and sister in law and their kid, his mom and dad, etc. his mom kindly asked me to pose with my ex so we could get a pic together and she never posted them or even sent them to us lol
also christmas was an absolute shitshow, for some reason my ex never told his family that i can cook so i sat there like a dumbass while his sister in law (who is actually a great person) screwed up cornish game hens. i could have helped but nick just... didn't want me to??
he told me not to get christmas gifts for his brother and sister in law but they ended up getting me something so i looked SUPER STUPID. his dad called me a gold digger.
like literally called me a gold digger on christmas morning while opening gifts. later i asked nick why he didn't defend me and i got the classic narcissist "he didn't say that, and if he did that's not what he meant, and if he did mean it then you probably gave him a reason"
so not only does their family have this whole eggshell culture of not questioning his father, they also worship his brother's intellect because he's really smart... so i had to sit there and pretend to be impressed even though i also have tested insanely high on IQ tests...
i feel like a normal situation would be "wow how cool you and dawn are both smarter than average, you must have a lot in common!" not "don't mention that you are also smart. it's not about you and you're not that smart anyway"
yes this motherfucker told me i wasn't as smart as i think i am MULTIPLE times but don't bring it up because he didn't say that and if he did say that it's not what he meant and if he did mean it i must have done something really dumb to make him say that etc
he told his friends i was "super young" and one time i met his friend matt (RIP, sweet guy) and he literally was like "what the hell, you're 27? i thought you were like 22" because nick described me as young and stupid to his friends
i should mention that a few months ago he and i had a huge blowout argument wherein he told me that all this was my fault for not calling it out at the time. this would be fair except anytime i wanted to talk he would shut me down with "i can't deal with this right now"
so anytime i wanted to bring something up and work it out, he would conveniently be too depressed/drunk/high/angry/tired to discuss it. this of course is my fault
i ran errands for him because his 40-hour schedule was too grueling for him to get basic tasks done outside work. the only time he ever did this for me was when we were in cali visiting my friends and he grabbed me a diet coke on his way to the wedding where i was doing makeup.
once he got mad at me because he asked me to get him "six limes" from the grocery store and i interpreted this to mean SIX LIMES when he really meant A SIX-PACK OF LIME FLAVORED WHITE CLAW. he was pissed. my fault
oh i also want to mention that we went to harborside TWICE during this visit to california and we visited my family 0 times.
it was my decision not to visit my family because one, i had fucked up feelings about it (that nick would not discuss with me) but also because i knew bringing this scrub in front of my parents would be humiliating lol. i cringe so hard that my friends had to put up with us
during aforementioned blowout fight he said "i would have visited your family, i had no idea you had these complicated feelings" again it was something i wanted to talk about many many many MANY times and he told me to shut up each and every time because it was too heavy.
so i made the executive decision that no family visit would happen because i couldn't even get him to sit down and chat about it for five minutes.
oh and speaking of family visits. he invited me to thanksgiving 2018 and then uninvited me. when my feelings got hurt he called his mom and she said i could come. lol
omg one time we were walking home from live on the green and he pulled out his phone and there was a straight up titty pic from some girl in his texts. i obviously asked him what the fuck and he said this girl he "used to bang" sent him nudes completely unsolicited... k
he also told me i shouldn't worry about her bc he wasn't attracted to her anyway. he also said this about the person from work he was fucking last year. apparently he fucks and dates people he doesn't find attractive? lol ok bro
for those wondering why i don't snitch at work - work knows. it's an open secret. no one cares, and i don't want to go on record with our HR dept that i let all of this happen to me lol
he told me he loved me while blacked out. more than once. denied it once sober and said that i "must have misunderstood what he meant" im sorry is there more than one meaning for "i love you" ??? he has since said "i love you in a way" and "i love the person that you are"
he also referred to his dog as "our son" or called me "his mom" because i obviously raised the fucking dog lol. when i wanted to talk about this because of my thoughts/feelings on motherhood he would not discuss it. later told me "wow i had no idea you felt that way"
anyways this thread is way too fucking long already and in conclusion. this all happened because i thought i deserved it. i thought i was supposed to be treated this way. and this, kids, is why you GO TO THERAPY.
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