but, if you give me another chance, i promise you i will be better. i will not put anything or anyone above you. oh, god, like, please, yell at me, punish me, do your worst, but give me another chance. please. that's all i'm asking for."

camryn's talent. honeyyyy

"i know what you want me to say, but i can't. this was over the second you betrayed me."

"i made a stupid, horrible mistake."

"and i'm done. i'm done with you, i'm done with this town, i'm done with this conversation. i think you should leave."

i respect tessa for this tbh

"i don't know how to say goodbye to you. because this was supposed to be forever. i don't want you to go. this hurts so much. because you are the love of my life, tessa. *and i believe her. it's obvious. she fucked up, but that's true. mistakes aside, that's true*

i'm so sorry. i just, i just hope one day you can forgive me. you can go to the ends of the earth and i will always carry you in my heart. i love you."

cait did good in the moment of slightly losing it after mariah walked away. tessa stayed calm while her heart was shattering

"she said that there was once a time in her life where she would've deserved being cheated on. but now she's stronger, and more sure of herself."

"okay."

"you don't get it."

"get what?"

"tessa can't forgive me *because* of me. so, i'm my own worst enemy once again."

welp

"i know that we're not close, and i know that you are hurting right now, but, you know, you have family that's gonna support you through this, and friends-"

summer's trying here so imma give her some credit for that.

"oh, my god. no, no. please, no. don't tell me to buck up and just move on, because that means that you really think it's hopeless."

summer and kyle just don't really know what to say and that's not their fault. they just aren't the right people to help her in this moment.

"why did you give me that big pep talk and tell me to go talk to tessa if you didn't think it would make any difference?"

"i told you to apologize to tessa because that's what she deserved. you knew there were no guarantees."

E X A C T L Y

"you made a mistake."

"no, this is worse than a mistake. i messed up the most beautiful, precious thing in my life."

"and you will find happiness again."

"i don't want it. i don't deserve it."

see, and like i feel so much for her. and at the same time i, i don't even know.

"i don't sing. i can't carry a note so beautifully it'll break your heart. but, sadly, i can break hearts in other ways. tessa, i am so horrified by what i did to you. *i appreciate that line so, so much* and i can't believe that i am doing this in front of all of these people.

but i need you to believe that this is coming from the heart, from deep within my soul. and i hope all the witnesses here can attest to the fact that this is real and true and honest. tessa porter, i utterly and absolutely love you with every atom of my being. *me: emotional*

and i am so sorry for my failure to trust you. and for my behavior. furthermore, i utterly and absolutely promise that if you take me back, i will never betray you again. i am saying this to you, tessa, in front of all of these people, so you can hold me accountable forever.

i will do whatever it takes to win you back. i will do anything, anything at all. you just tell me what to do and i'll do it."

i respect mariah so much for that and you can tell tessa was softening through the whole thing cause she loves her but she felt scared & ambushed too

"okay, i know that i am the last person that you wanna see right now."

"and yet here you are again, crashing my space."

"hear me out. i thought that if i bared my soul in front of your fans at the concert, you would know how sorry i was."

that's realistic though*

"you showed up to the one place that belongs to me. that's my thing and you made it about you."

"i was trying to make it about us."

on one hand, she should've just let her be, but on the other hand, i'm also glad she kept fighting because she needed to. she really needed to.

"nice try, but there is no us."

"no, you're wrong, okay. tessa, there is something here. there's something worth saving. and i'm not giving up without a fight."

"don't you get it? i'm all outta fight."

"well, then, i'll fight for both of us."

good girl

"what are you gonna do, mariah? what's the game plan here? are you just gonna keep apologizing until i love you again, or?"

"hey. you still love me. *absofuckinglutely she still does. cait did soooo good with those body movements trying to shrug it off but girl we KNOW*

tessa, you gave me somewhere to be."

"what?" *that was golden*

"we're both tired of living on life's leash. you gave me somewhere to be..."

"stop. stop! okay, i think i know the lyrics to my own song, thank you very much."

ha, ha, ha. hurt but sassy. my baby.

"yes, yes. the song that you wrote for me. and every time i watch you sing it, even if you're on stage in front of thousands of fans, for those four minutes and sixteen seconds, we're the only two people in the room. *girl got a point the way she looks at her when she sings *

and that is not the kind of love that dies because of one horrible mistake. that's the kind of love that lasts forever."

"you -cheated- on me." *y'all, no lie, she DELIVERED that line*

"because i stupidly thought that you had. and it devastated me. i'm so sorry." *camryn! *

"yeah, you keep saying that, but you've never walked into your own home and found the woman you love with a completely different person."

*THAT LINE RIPS MY HEART OUT*

"and you have every right to remind me of that a thousand times a day."

yes, she does. yes, she really does.

"yeah, that would be a good start."

*tessa's slight shake of her head and hand movement was so on point. like, yes, my love, for my petty ass every once in a while, it would be*

"but, see, you can't do that if i'm your ex-girlfriend. *true though. valid and true*

and you still love me, tessa. i know you do because it wouldn't hurt this much if you didn't. so scream, yell at me. god, call me every name in the book just, please, don't go away. i know it's terrifying to stand in front of somebody so exposed. i'm exposed, too.

but i'll walk outta here. i'll go away. i will walk off of this plane, right now, if you can turn around and look me in the eye and tell me that you don't love me anymore. but i don't think you can. *and that look just proves she can't but it's still not gonna be that easy*

see? you can't say that you don't love me because you know that there is something here worth saving."

parallel to that blackmail shit where mariah said she moved back in to see if there was something worth saving and tessa's like "is there?"

my how the tables have turned.

"you think this is just about cheating? i've been cheated on plenty of times before. *cam can act her ass off but damn she's got reacting down to a true science too* but, i always told myself just to role with it, because it's the inevitable part of dating. but, then i met you.

and then i imagined a world where something like -this- could mean something. and then i saw you with her. and then i realized i shouldn't have changed. and i shouldn't have put you on a pedestal, because you're just as mediocre as the rest of us. *mariah deserved that *

and it hurt. it hurt in a way that it never has before. *that voice break* i hate that you made me someone who cares about cheating."

i get it. it's honest. it's different. it matters because they're more than anything either of them has ever had before.

"you care because you love me. i'm not perfect, tessa. i am ridiculously, hopelessly, unimaginably flawed. and i am going to make alot more mistakes down the road, but i will never, ever, make that mistake again, okay. you have my word. *i appreciate her honesty & accountability*

but i can't prove that to you if you don't let me back in."

"how am i supposed to do that?"

"i don't know. it's not gonna be easy. it's gonna be hard, but, eventually..."

"just gonna have to roll with it."

"no, no."

that's not what she meant at all

"i've heard this speech before, mariah. there's nothing original about it." *OUCH*

"you know, when a relationship goes south, people say 'what did you expect? this is real life. it's not a love song.' but i think they're wrong. *tessa crying/listening and i just wanna hug her*

i think this is a love song, it's just not filled with sweet and sappy lyrics. it's got an edge. this is our love song. about people who have been through it all and still managed to beat the odds." *okay, girl gets points for that*

"you think that's still possible?"

WE ALL DO!

"yeah, i do. because i love everything about us. i love your talent. i love that we can probably afford a bigger place, but we choose to stay in that crappy studio with that ratty old sofa bed."

"you love our sofa bed, really?"

"yeah. it's rough around the edges, you know, it's torn in a few places, but it's ours. it's-"

"it's us."

okay, hold on one second cause i gotta make a few comments.

i appreciate the analogy but that isnt exactly theirs anymore considering that mess of a mistake happened on it or the couch part i guess so like let them be happy and burn it and get a new one and a new place while working on building a stronger relationship than theyve ever had

"you were right, tessa. i'm mediocre. i'm average. i'm just like everybody else. except for you. you make me better. that's why i'm willing to take this leap so please, please take it with me."

baby girl got her heart on her sleeve and my other girl's slowly relenting

"you really have a way with words. but the thing is, you scare me, mariah."

the way mariah looks up at her as she says that and the way tessa says it with such vulnerability always gets me. it's like a maybe we can moment. and just maybe we will.

"what are you scared of? that i'm gonna cheat again, because that's never gonna happen."

*and i believe her. she self destructed but who doesn't. she knows what she did. she's owned it. she's trying. she's fighting. and in this moment that's all she can do. so, props for that*

"if you break this again, if you break me, it's ir, it's irreparable. it can't be undone."

and girl just looks at her girl like waaaait you just said like hold on im confused did you just say what i think you said? and then asks her. *that was nice touch* added so much.

"wait. you said if, if i break this again? *and tessa's little watery eyed smile* does that mean that there's a this, at all, because i swear to god, if i touch you right now, i'm never gonna let you go."

"i don't want you to let go."

and hand out, and hand taken

so much relief and joy and forgiveness all in one hug and you know they've got a ways to go but it's a beautiful start to their next chapter. and it's fitting in a way. tessa's messed up and now it was mariah's turn. so just bring on the damn wedding. they've earned it.

and it goes without saying that cam and cait play off each other sooo well. it's hard to explain but it's just there. i mean sure, there's the writing and all that but the people playing it and actually selling it to where you feel/root for them both is a tough thing so cheers

"i wanna thank you, tessa."

"for what?"

"for forgiving mariah."

"sharon, i was hurt, yeah, but there are more important things to worry about right now."

you know, regardless of tessa dating her daughter, i'm glad sharon has another person on her team.

"nothing is more important than being in each other's corner. than loving each other and, and giving that extra measure of love when it's really needed."

"like now."

"definitely."

"i think i get what you're saying."

"okay, um, i'm not gonna be subtle here.

um, you know i really want you to understand, um, i don't know where this is going for me. i don't know if i will be..."

"sharon."

"no, it's okay. just let me finish. for mariah to have someone in her life, to lean on, to comfort her, someone to love her.

that means everything to me. you understand? it means everything."

1. i love the way sharon loves her kids.
2. teriah being on good terms before this convo matters too.

"okay, well you can check that off your list. you don't need to worry about mariah. i'm not going anywhere."

"thank you."

this hug was so precious because they've come such a long way. and mariah opening the door and seeing her mom and her girlfriend being so much more than civil, her two favorite people, it's heartwarming to say the least. took time, but they got there. *yayyy*

"but on the inside i'm thinking about every dark outcome."

"i can tell you one thing about every possible scenario you can dream up."

"really?"

"mhmm."

"you can tell the future?"

"yep. i will be there through every *single* one of them.

fast forward to the end... there's tessa. freeze frame in the middle... tessa. rewind for every good part..."

"uh, tessa?"

"mhmm. see? you're getting it. cause that's the one thing you can always count on. i will always be here. and i'm always yours."

i love her!! and them.

"that is literally the nicest thing that anybody's ever said to me."

"well, here's something nicer. why, why don't we just make it of-"

and i mean i guess i kinda like that she stopped her with a kiss cause that's a huge thing and they're already handling huge things.

"but, but i didn't finish my thought."

"yeah, exactly. look, i can't, i can't wrap my head around anything else right now, but once we are on the other side of this, once sharon is feeling better and we are feeling grounded, i wanna talk about it.

i wanna hear every detail, i promise."

"well, you will, cause i'm gonna sweep you off your feet."

*cait said that so cute*

"you already have. you know that."

not me thinking how tessa said "i am definitely willing and able to sweep you off your feet" on their anniversary

idk if i trust the writers not to fuck them all up and over again but if they do please no more cheating and please don't do a revenge plot. they don't need it. they can have so much more drama and angst and love with so many other things than that.

so lemme go back to my hug