Thread by @HTTPaladin, Generally speaking I tweet only good things that happen in my work [...]

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HTTPaladin

Generally speaking I tweet only good things that happen in my work or life.

Charity games, silly shit in chats, progress on work, interviews.

And I share news of importance through retweets and likes and interactions.

I feel like you don’t need any of my negativity in here.

And you don’t.

Your life is hard. Life right now is hard.

People are suffering. People are dying.

There is an overwhelming feeling of numbness and recklessness from those who sit in places of power.

And my problems don’t need to be sprinkled into your timeline as well.

But I’ll be honest. I’ve been tired and broken for weeks. And many attempts to reach out to peers and talk have fallen short to misunderstanding, assumption, or miscommunication. So it’s been piling up. And that’s never healthy.

But I’m so tired of being tired.

I have been left with my own thoughts for months now, and I have been trapped with my own self-reflection. Of the abuse I withstood. Of the suffering I endured. Of the pain I felt. Of the loneliness I self-inflict. And I’ve come to this.

I’m done.

I’m done feeding the loneliness and the pain and the suffering and the replays of the abuse. I’m done chanting in my head the ways that I have failed. I’m done.

I bow before infinite light.

Nothing else. Never again.

Deleting this thread when I wake up.

Tell the people you love that you love them.

Nurture your friendships.

Strengthen your bonds.

These are the things that will keep you going.

You can follow @HTTPaladin.

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