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Why Sherry Belmont is my favorite fictional character, and how they once stopped me from ending my life, a thread. (Spoiler warning for Zatchbell/Konjiki No Gash) (Trigger warning for thoughts of suicide and parental abuse)
While i could go into how good the writing, personality, and design of her is, i& #39;m focusing mainly on how they stopped me from putting my life to an end, and how i got the chance to grow as a person from it. Ever since i was a little kid, I& #39;ve found manga and anime interesting,
and my first anime that i ever watched? Zatchbell. And years later after i first watched the anime, i revisited it with the manga. And while i was reading it, i was at the peak of my depression. Every day i felt like i wasn& #39;t good enough to live, that i served no purpose and that
everyone i knew would& #39;ve lived happier lives if i had never been born. I believed that every second, and life just wasn& #39;t worth living. I always thought "If life is short, and if i die nothing in the world ultimately changes, why should i even live?"
My father is the reason for all of it, and I& #39;m still fucked up by how horrible of a person he is. I even plan on celebrating, and looking forward to the day that he dies. He& #39;s the worst person i know. Racist, anti-lgbt, and he& #39;d constantly tell me my life was worthless, and that
i was a failure who was born only to make his life worse. And because of having these terrible thoughts hammered into me all the time, i believed him. That i was nothing but a burden. And why did he do this? All because i have autism. That& #39;s the only reason. He thought i was
faking it for attention just so that i could have something about me that was deemed special. So naturally, feeling all these terrible things about myself, one of the only escapes i had from how terrible my life was, was reading. And then i got to see Sherry& #39;s backstory.
They& #39;d gone through everything i had, and also had once considered ending their life just so that other people could be happy. They too had thoughts of "It& #39;s my fault for being a failure", "I& #39;m the reason every day is so painful", "Everyone would be happier if i just left",
"Everyone would be happier if i just wasn& #39;t born", "If i don& #39;t do it, if I don& #39;t end my life here I& #39;ll only continue to suffer for merely existing." They too had a parent constantly torture them, force them to try to improve at skills they didn& #39;t want to/weren& #39;t good at do(ing).
While i had been told by my father "You were born just to make my life worse", they were told by their mother "How could i give birth to such a useless girl like you".
And so, when they were a child, Sherry was going to kill herself by throwing herself off a bridge into a raging
And so, when they were a child, Sherry was going to kill herself by throwing herself off a bridge into a raging
river, and i had been planning to do the same thing at the time. To feel one last feeling of pure torture, before they could finally be free from all the pain. But then, she had someone, stop her.
She was told words that i still live to this day thinking of. "If you die while things are bad, you won& #39;t be able to live when things are better." I still live by that motto. Whenever i felt like the world would be better off without me living, and that i had no reason to ever
have been alive at all, i just thought of those words. And now? I& #39;ve finally reached the times when things are better. I& #39;ve been able to feel genuine happiness for the first time in a long time. And if i know that if i ever want to die again, i just need to remember to keep
living until things are better. That& #39;s how Sherry Belmont& #39;s backstory stopped me from killing myself.
I haven& #39;t said much outside of her backstory, the thing that effected me most, or the person who actually told her those words, but that& #39;s because i don& #39;t want to spoil such an
I haven& #39;t said much outside of her backstory, the thing that effected me most, or the person who actually told her those words, but that& #39;s because i don& #39;t want to spoil such an
absolutely brilliant series. Please, no matter how you do it, read Zatchbell. It means so much to me, and the writing is excellent. It can go from goofy antics to depressing stories in a matter of seconds and none of it feels forced. Thank you for reading this thread, and i hope
that if you& #39;re going through terrible times right now, those words will help you too.
