I think about Breonna Taylor a lot.

And yeah, I do think calls to arrest the cops, in all sorts of meme form or otherwise, are missing the point of this moment.

The system worked exactly as it was supposed to. Breonna's death is a function of it. Asking it to correct itself...

I can't tell anyone to quell their desire for vengeance or pain or grief or loss.

But I can tell you that trying the same reform that has shown us over and over again in anecdotal and systemic fashion won't bring about the change were so desperate to see, even if it placates us.

We get the arrest, lose the indictment. Maybe get a lesser indictment, don't get a conviction. Or get a conviction, but sentencing in a separate facility for the "safety of officers" where they are friendly with law enforcement and they get "let out early for good behavior."

You're screaming for acknowledgement from the same actors that are killing us without batting an eyelash, and then letting that pain be wrung out from us and transposed into internet fodder.

So I can't tell you what to do, or how to feel. I'm still working through a lot, and reading and learning from others much more intelligent than myself.

But "Arrest the cops that killed Breonna Taylor" has come to mean very little for me, personally.

I have to sit with the fact that we want the very system that has viewed Breonna's death as acceptable collateral in the current American condition to be what is also supposed to be used to allocate any amount of justice for Black people.

It's mindnumbing.