When I went on twitter today and saw people talking about John Crist updating his profile picture, my stomach dropped. I immediately felt nauseous and anxious. I’m going to try to put words to why I felt that way. (1)

John manipulated /used for me over a year. & when I read what he did to many other women the hurt only magnified. One of my greatest fears when all this happened was that he would disappear and then come back like nothing happened. That his apology was for appearances only. (2)

I can’t explain the level of hurt I feel when I see other Christians praising his potential return. They claim that they’re embracing forgiveness and grace, but it feels like prefer a few laughs and entertainment over real repentance and restoration. (3)

I don’t want any other women to experience what I or many others did. I am still processing and working through what happened. And please believe me, I have and are continuing to forgive John. I can goes months without thinking about him and then all of sudden I will see (4)

or hear something what reminds me of what happened. I want his best. I truly desire his restoration. But please know that he has build up and lived a manipulative lifestyle for 7+ years. I confronted him on his actions. Other women have as well, yet it wasn’t until the story (5)

broke that he made an “apology”. What his said was vague and skirted around a lot of others accused him of. Can you really recover from and change dangerous and manipulative patterns that you lived for years in a matter of a few months? Is moving back into the spot light (6)

really the best for your recovery?
I don’t want John to be penniless and rejected from society. But get a regular job bro. Or work behind the scenes. Why put yourself back in the same situation which got you into this mess? (7)

Why risk him hurting even more women? Is it worth it? Is a few jokes and laughs worth his spiritual recovery? Again, please know that I’m not some angry, bitter women. This just all seems SO unwise //END