On the evening of July 8th,2020 at approximately 5:40pm I was assaulted and harmed by police officers and emt workers inside of an ambulance in broad daylight in Robbins, Illinois. The two nurses who assaulted me continued to hold my arms down and allowed male officers to grab me

I had an anxiety attack and couldn’t make it to my destination. had just been laid out on the ground by myself in the middle of the sidewalk on a busy street (137th and Lindsey) because I was dehydrated after smoking a blunt. I dead ass got myself up and proceeded on my route.

While i was crying HYSTERICALLY( i have anxiety and real life couldn’t breathe) i saw a police car and thought hmmmm maybe you should ask them for help before you really pass tf out bitch and somebody snatch yo tf up I WAS WRONG

the police did NOT help me. I continued to say my name and that I had anxiety, i clearly could not get my words together or form a sentence because i couldn’t breathe. I was just hanging w some boys by the park and they walked pass, i told the officers this. THANK GOD I DID THAT

bro if i think that if i never said anything about hanging w them niggas mfs really would’ve took my little ass. Mfs as in the police. As in took my life bitch.

Bro I’m telling mfs my name is kamilah and to “call my mom” the officer then replied to me that she will be called shortly. What. Mf call my mama bitch wym.

So now i’m irritated af idk wtf going on I’m still trynna figure out why this attack is happening so long. The police moving slow as shit asking me where my ID is and shit opening my purse up going through my shit. I’m like. Where tf the ambi at hoe? Why has no one called MY MA

so g. they asking me did the boys do something to me. I’m not trynna talk. I’m trynna calm down and recollect my thoughts. Now the ambulance is here. They like ight let’s get an iv in you. I’m call my mama. Mommy. My mother.

two police officers and the nurses drag me in the van. after i tell them no , i don’t want an iv. i have anxiety. all i keep saying is mommy, kamilah, and and anxiety. now in my head I’m thinking, “don’t let them put this iv in you little bitch. no no no.”

i real life had to fight 2 female nurses( one white Latina w blondish hair and green or blue eyes i believe and the other full Hispanic w ambré brunette hair) and four male police officers(i believe forgive my foggy anxiety memory iss accurate doe) off of me.

There was a black man who was trying to calm me down. He asked me what my favorite cartoon was or some shit I’m like spongebob. He like i got a niece and she like spongebob I’m okay okay I’m calm now. Girl he was the dEVILLLLLLLLLLLL YA’LL

this nigga was just trynna distract me from this white Latina bitch trynna put the iv in me. i began to pull my arm away from her and she trynna hold my arm down she shit then I’m STILL spitting up and feeling sick bro. Trigger warning.

*trigger warning* the white Latina bitch then proceeds to try to put a towel or my nose and mouth. i’m MCSCUSE ME?? ya’ll. While I’m spitting up little bitch?? DEAD ASS?? ya’ll.

SO now I’m mmmmmmmm mfs is def on some very very very sus shit. Everybody(2-3 police officers and ugly brunette Latina bitch) trynna hold me down and shit while the white latina bitch put the towel over my face. I look at this bitch and she look at me and

She says something along the “don’t even think about it” and i spit in her face. fuck. Now she’s mad. Everybody like “ooooooooh”. I spit in her left eye. This allows me to get out her grip. Now I’m trynna get out of everybody else hold. I’m little as shit but ik I’m squirmish

so they can’t really get a hold on me. Y’all i was not trynna let them get at tf ALL. I’m moving my head side to side. I’m trynna bitch the towel, i chomping at mf hands. These niggas was literally pushing my head down bro. I guess i was too much to handle for the white latina

they keeping telling her to use her foot to hold my hand down cause they were trynna strap me onto the gurney bro. Mfs said “Do you want us to strap you down?” I say what no bitch “I’m not a crazy person i- i mean..” cause i realized i used the term “crazy instead of

mentally ill. these mfs thought i wasn’t in my sound mind y’all. they real life did me however tf they wanted and thought i wasn’t gonna put up a fight. Ya’ll. This BLACK MAN proceeds to get on top of me and hold the towel down over my nose& mouth. Full force.

Imagine a fucking NIGGA holding a thic ass pillow over ya face g. Ya’ll ever be playing w some bad ass kids and they playing too much and somebody put a pillow or cover over your face and try to sit on your face or done shit? it felt Ike that times 406. I thought i was dying. Fr.

and if i didn’t think they was on some fishy shit before that. my nonbreathing ass did now. i was fucking terrified. I still am. I can’t even close my eyes without seeing that nigga on top of me. mfs holding me down. A WOMAN holding my arms. trying to stick a needle in me.

I decided that if i was gonna get out of this alive i would have to fake it. I am actually pretty fucking ashamed of myself for the next part I’m about o tell y’all but this is some real shit and i almost d
FUCKING DIED so

ya’ll i real life had to FAKE MOAN cause i know how sick men are in the fucking head. real life. He had so much force on my mouth and nose I’m telling myself to breathe slowly so i don’t begin hyperventilating or some shit. Mfs taking my shoes off and shit I’m thinking it’s to

check and see if i have a needle is in my foot or some shit cause they thought i was off the drugs. G. G. “Yeah we can just saw this right off” that’s what i heard. I’m telling y’all that’s what i heard. I have some of the absolute best hearing I know. I also have a vivid memory

I remember faces and numbers very very well if i want to even if i don’t want to sometimes. My short term memory capacity is very fucking high. I have never taken medication other than the regular degular Tylenol some acid reflux pills here and there. I am mentally fit.

in my head i instantly thought of the worst so i started to panic. Again. Another anxiety attack. Now fight or flight is kicking in bitch. I go berserk. Cause i know that i got that lil organ donar shit on my card. Oh my god y’all. CAUSE WHY WAS THE WORD SAW EVEN USED

Mfs like “there’s weed in her bag[purse]but she doesn’t smell like weed]”. I’m still trynna get loose and shit. Cause saw what off. If i didn’t start using my womanly skills i would have suffocated to death. Literally. I would be dead.

I had to start talking reckless as shit so i could get out of the situation. I’m telling mfs i know shit. I’m telling mfs i gotta pee. I’m like “at least let a bitch pee one last time before she die! I can’t take one last piss???” Yes. I did say this. Everything i type is true

So I’m trynna pray and shit cause I’m pretty sure these were gonna my last moments. That’s how scared i was. I’m screaming. I’m yelling “MOMMY. HELP.” and they keep trynna put the towel over my mouth and shit

Horny men is what saved my life. Cause them niggas wanted to hear me moan. So he began to lift the towel from over my mouth and nose a bit. After i fake passed out i heard them hee hee hawing and shit about how “didn’t think we’d get a crazy one today” akekeke bitch.

At the hospital they treated me horribly. Still no one has called my mom. I’m not sure i heard the wee woo shit go off until we first entered the entrance at the hospital. Like it wasn’t an emergency. Tuh. I was trynna move my toes and fingers so they wouldn’t lose feeling.

The white latina bitch w blondish brown hair and blue or green eyes looked at me and shook her fucking head when i moving my fingers and shit in the ambi van.That’s why i spit in yo eye bitch. I hope you see this.

i play little stupid bitch when we make it to the hospital like “i forgot”. I look at everybody right in the face when we get to the hospital so they can see me. So they remember my face. So i remember they’re features cause everyone has a mask on. A mask doesn’t hide you. I see

I’m saying hello to all of the nurses and staff. Some nurse comes to me is like do you remember anything i say no. She like they had to strap you down you were trynna fight them. I’m like whaaaaaaaaa meeeeee noooo

Now they show me my doctor. Talked to that white man one time. They took me to my room and i ask for water. They ask me if i can move myself on to the bed. I say no bitch my limbs are numb. Mfs was cutTING MY CIRCULATION OFF. How imma move.

they move me onto the bed. Now I’m mad. Like i wasn’t already fucking furious. I keep yelling “CALL MY MOM!! WHY HAS NOBODY CALLED MY MOM???” I’m literally staring at mfs phone in the nurse pocket (lmfao) and I’m like may i use your phone to call my fucking mama???? they like no

I’m wtf no mean. Why. Why. Why. I was there for 10 minutes and received no water. Nobody asked me what my pain level was not once. I told them my tummy and legs and arms were hurting and they wanted to stick me with ANOTHER iv. i say no bitch call my mama. I’m not trynna talk

or answer no questions at all. My nurse is like well let’s get your vitals checked and then we’ll call your mother. Bitch is you dumb

so they continue to tell me i need to take my clothes off. in my head I’m like UH UH THEY TRYNNA OPERATE. FUCK NO BABY WHY TF I NEED TO TAKE MY CLOTHES OFF I SHOULDN’T EVEN BE HEREEE WHERE IS MY MOM CALL MY MOM WHY HAS SHE NOT BEEN CALLED MOMMYYYYYYY

so I’m trynna tell myself to remain calm and think smart about every fucking move i make. They keep telling me i need to change into this thin ass cloth w no strings and shit with men surrounding my room and the door wide open. Sick.

I tell them i need privacy and they let me close the door. It still hurts to move. I put the gown over my clothes cause it’s basically a fucking robe made of napkin material. i walk out the room like

THIS IS REAL YA’LL. I AM STILL PROCESSING ALL OF THIS. I USE HUMOR TO COPE WITH MY DEPRESSION AND TRAUMA. MIND YOU WHILE ALL OF THIS IS GOING ON. I am cursing everybody tf OUT. This white officer w a gun on his hip kept coming for me. Said they didn’t have to let me call anyone

I’m like shutup bitch. You a bitch. Yo mama a bitch. I’m yelling at everybody like every single one of you is going to HELL bitch. Cause you mean i can’t call anyone. The nurses and officers said they couldn’t use their personal phones so i could called my mom.

I’m inches away from this black man, Dell. They was trynna get a urine sample from me. I say no no no. Mfs gave water after TEN FUCKING MINUTES of me being there. Still no call to anyone. I say i don’t have to piss. Give a gallon of water and let me call my mom and I’ll piss

They still onnat telling me i need to be naked under my gown. Huh. Why do i even have to take all my clothes off. I don’t fucking get it. I thought they were about to let them niggas have they way with me on my fucking granny bro.

I tell mfs i go to uindy and i eat lunch w the president and shit so they know I’m important. I don’t eat w that nigga but if they thought that i was a random girl they were gonna kill me. My ID is from Indiana and it’s says I’m a donor so I’m thinking oop bitch they thinking

“She not from around here. We finna get this lil bitch.” Mfs thought i was some kinda stupid junkie hoe or a runaway or some shit and they WAS FINNA GET ME DON’T YA’LL KNOW SEX TRAFFICKING IS REAL AND NIGGAS DIE ERRDAY CAUSE OF THEY HEALTHY ORGANS???????

Man when i say i was not going. Mfs said “either you change into the gown or we’ll change for you” I’m bro who the fuck you talking to. . Now I’m okay I’ll change but damn can y’all close the door AT LEAST. every starin at me like I’m a fucking wild animal on display

so i sat there for second, STILL HURTING. SCARED. I’m like why the fuck do they wanna get me out of my clothes so bad for. the nurse told me “I’m giving you 90 seconds to change and if you’re not changed by then we’re gonna come back in and do it for you” WHAT.

man it’s like every fucking second i was around these people my ANXIETY WAS FUCKING RIIIIISING DO YOU HEAR ME SAY CHEST PAINS BITCH MY HEAD WAS SPINNING YOU GONE DO WHAT STUPID BITCH ??? CHANGE MY CLOTHES FOR ME HUH FOR WHAT WHY AM I HERE

now I’m like okay. no. I want my mommy. The pay let me talk to her after i cursed and screamed and called the white man every name in the book and shit. Mfs came back in the room about 60 seconds later fed tf up and irritated w me officer DELL and the white officer

(His last name began with an s i didn’t get a good look i was too focused on him being a white man w a gun on his hip yelling at me to take my clothes off) cane into the room and sat me on the bed. A Latina nurse came in(she too had a phone on her) held my legs down on the bed

The white officer was above me the black officer DELL was on my left side. The white nurse on my right. and together they removed my clothing “trying their best to cover me w a sheet” whilst the blinds on the door were open and another yt man stood there and watched. hurt. I am.

While officer DELL helped them hold me down and remove my pants he was literally staring at my vagina. my womanhood. My pussy. Yes. I wanted to die.

They let me go and i sat there. I sat in the room alone for a while. Every time i tried to leave the room the stopped me or followed me. Told me the phones weren’t for the patients when i asked to call my sister. They stuck another needle in me and drew blood. I just sat there.

I still cannot believe those black women. Those women. Allowed that to happen to me.

I arrived at the hospital at maybe 6 pm and did not leave until 1 in the morning. I asked if i could watch spongebob and there were only commercials on the fucking nickelodeon channel and i think i was more pissed about that than anything. This damn nurse turned to BET .

When it was around 12 the nurse told me they found nothing in my system i could hear the nurses talking to one another I’m looking directly in the face while they point at me so ik they talking about me they like she’s clean we don’t see nothing

in her system. Maaaaaaaaaaaaan the bitch bent down and told me there was a “bit of weed in my urine” and that i could go if inward ready like i wanted to fucking be there or something. Y’all. I leave and go looking for my mom. She told me the nurses said they injected me w someth

-ing. I’m like wtf that mean ??????? She said “they said they had to bring you back” I’m.. BACK FROM WHERE BITCH I FAKE PASSED OUT WHERE DID I GO ??????? my discharge papers said i was on BATH SALTS

Y’all i asked the the hospital where my belongings were and they told me i didn’t come there w nothing. My purse. Gone. It had i picture of my grandma in it that i may never get back. Fuck the police.

mfs said they found me by a Walgreens passed out and the firemen brought me in. WHAT. I’m sorry i guess i missed that part. What did i buy from walgreens ms.nurse lady?

So y’all remember i told y’all about that man. The one man. The one who looked at me. After they took my clothes off mfs said “now that wasn’t so bad now was it” no it wasn’t so bad. It horrific you ugly BITCH. he added me on sc yesterday.