in all honesty i’m really scared to move back to korea. that’s where the lowest of my experiences were. i spent all of my senior year alone in my house with no friends and my relationship deteriorated terribly. i had a failed attempt, i became obsessed with working out and hating

my body. nooooow, i’m going back to be in my house all year for school once again. almost the same exact situation. the only difference is that i’m a lot more secure of myself. like i’m secure in my body and my own opinions, and i’ve vowed to never cut again bc my parents still

don’t trust me and give me hell for it. (i love them and appreciate everything they’ve done to help me recover from my senior year and freshman year of college!) i’m hoping that i find a way to be healthier and happier this time without social media and trying new things like

changing eating habits, vitamins, etc. but it’s honestly just a toss up! there’s a lot of things i miss from before my senior year, like clear legs, not knowing the pain of how it feels to fall out of love, the cluelessness of legitimately not having friends. but i wouldn’t

have it any way? like now i know how a relationship should be. that i can be an introverted neat freak but i’m also extrovert who needs lots of attention and physical touch and to do something nuts every once in awhile. i learned to accept my body for what it is (wendy williams

lookin ass) and how to make decisions that are better for myself. i’m still learning that some people drift away and you have to let them. i haven’t completely accepted that amara isn’t apart of my life now or that i don’t have everything figured out with a head start. but like

it’s okay?

for legal reasons this thread is a joke. i’ve always been healthy and happy and my boobs are so big from my big heart