Read on Twitter
I just want to share my realizations while stanning Liu Yu Xin.
This is a LONG THREAD so, if you don& #39;t want to read, skip this.
This is a LONG THREAD so, if you don& #39;t want to read, skip this.
I always ask myself before why do people crying over an idol? Why do they really spend time with them, spend their efforts and money over them? That question became more questionable when I watched Yennis Huang and Lisa moments in the first episodes.
When she shared how she really likes Lisa made me realized that how I wish I can have the opportunity to say this to Yuxin. How she made me realize that being yourself is never been easy in the midst of high expectations around you and living a must with social norms and roles.
I stan Yuxin at first for being talented, cool, charismatic and handsome in stage. But I stan harder for her being a softhearted yet warm kind of person. But I salute her for being herself despite of crossing against criticisms, disappointments and discrimination.
You know what guys, it is so hard to be yourself, I really knew that even if you don& #39;t admit, we stan an idol whom we can relate to. We may not admit it in ourselves that we stan Yuxin because we also gone through questioning if we are really being ourselves.
We want to break the cage of expectations around us, it is easy to say that we are being real but the truth is, it was never been easy. I really look up high to Yuxin bcoz rn I realized it is so hard to be yourself, that you keep asking urself if you& #39;re really doing such thing -
For yourself? That are you really happy doing it for yourself or is it bcoz you can gain affirmation from others? I can feel those doubts of Yuxin rn, I always wanted to be myself but I can& #39;t. I ended up meeting everybody& #39;s expectations.
I really think that we stan an idol whom we want to be in our idealistic thoughts. Just like Yuxin, I want to be brave as her, I want to be kind as her, I want to be firm as her to her own principles in life. I love her not just becoz she& #39;s talented but becoz --
I want to be brave as her to break those social expectations that surrounds me and letting myself be accepted when the time comes.
Sorry I just shared this coz no one here in my place that can understand mh depth of stanning Yuxin.
Sorry I just shared this coz no one here in my place that can understand mh depth of stanning Yuxin.
We are always going through adulting stage where we always questioning our purpose and existence that& #39;s why I though of some things like this. Stanning Yuxin, joining the fandom really made me overcome my anxiety evrytime it occurs coz her videos make me feel better and calm.
She really have the power to inspire, comfort and make you feel better with just her presence, her smiles, her few words and actions.
