People are sexually harassing and misgendering me now because the point of this monstering is to punish me for my presence at all. That my rapist @fcukign pretends to be against the misgendering is comical. What did you think would happen?

I admit it's getting to me. I know Laramie and i gotta say im thinking this was intended.

This is far from their first transmisogynistic Adventure. Even the attempted rape was not the first transmisogynistic thing they did to me

Our first sexual encounters were very different, honestly wonderful and I've tried to judge them by who they were in those moments when they helped me remember to love myself. But the theme of that night was that my boundaries and limits didn't matter. My pain and exhaustion

The theme of the relationship was that my safety and health were secondary to their specific desires. Not just taxing my immune system (walking around w shit on butt, etc) but also disregarding and minimizing my safety needs as an out, autistic TW; fears of rape, torture etc

@fcukign and @AideenDewinter both chain smoked tobacco in my tobacco free studio apartment that didn't consistently get enough ventilation anyway. They often woke me up by gassing me out of my tiny home with noxious amounts of cigarette smoke. Ada abused this sacred leaf also.

I informed both that it would be considerate to keep from throwing unsmoked tobacco in the trash, on the ground, etc. @fcukign did their best at this to their credit. @AideenDewinter did not care about the stink proving we were in violation of my lease. I should've kicked both out

Ada also did not care about the fact of living in Lenapehoking (also somewhat to the point, using the tv to cast abusers'/apolotists' D&D shows and that awful natalie person on YT) or disrespecting the tobacco brought there in her preferred brand and the people who worked it etc

I recognize now that i enabled both to lie, scam me, and trash my apartment up to the point where i could be provoked to yell no or stop or whatever they're more mad about than systemic boundary violations and abusers. I did know better. I don't think I'm going to read it.

After gassing me out of my home with tobacco, @fcukign would characterize my safety needs as an out TW in Philly as selfish distractions or something, and their clear resentment stayed even as i explained (ugh) why it mattered. Laramie's visit was also physically painful...

I went pretty far to support their recovery from a vaguely described but clearly serious foot injury. They were in pain and sometimes fell or needed help walking. Often we would be surrounded by helpful people- philly medical institutions are massive- and L'd refuse to ask4 help

They would turn people down who tried to help. Meanwhile i had slip n fall injuries that had been unexamined for yeeeeears after my previous domestic abuser isolated me from doctors/pt. So helping them up as i was often forced to, was extremely painful bc i was not on pain rx!!

I begged, begged them to accept help from the many people much healthier and wealthier than us all around- the worst ones happened right by a hospital. Im extremely sympathetic but omg the pain

I had to go to jail for weed later to get examined. And the results got sent to another jail out of state.

This thread has 1 retweet and comment on each post. Honestly they are so creepy and i feel silly for not seeing it at the time but it's whatever.

Just talk to me if u support survivors n leave me alone if u prefer rapists like @fcukign. It was incredibly retraumatizing 4 DVAW