It took me over 5 years to put my pride and ego to the side when analyzing a situation like the end of a friendship or a breakup. I often put myself as THE victim when I did in most cases errors that contributed to the endings of these relationships and-

don& #39;t think that it was easy, i lived in a partially abusive household and I was taught by my abusive mother than in all situations, the best way to get away with responsibilities was to make myself the victim, while in most ended relationship i was the one throw away, I surely-

-surely i wasn& #39;t fully innocent in a way that my trust issues pushed me to not fully trust either friends or partners.

- Indeed , i had and still have some heavy trust issues which usually lead me to constantly need reassurance otherwise I will just end up crying because of the awful stories my brain creates out of body language I misunderstand. My mother-

-my mother is the reason why I have such heavy trust issues, she taught me and my siblings that cheating was something that could happen since she cheated and still cheat on my father who btw NEVER left her and still thinks she will ever change...

- I am making this thread to kind of explain and apologise for when I tweeted vents about exes and ex-friends, i forgave the wrongs they did to me and some of them i still wonder how i am able to forgive such things but i do.

Because I want to move on and feel better, holding grudges Is exhausting and I don& #39;t want this. it is exhausting for both me and the other person in the situation we& #39;re in. I forgive you and I really hope you could ever forgive me too https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="♥" title="Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Herz">
All of this is extremely sincere https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="♥" title="Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Herz">