i know i shouldnt but im sitting here just...thinking about the shit luck i& #39;ve had in love/relationships. i know that it& #39;s not the end all be all of life, and so many people experience life just fine, in some cases better without love. i know that

sorry this is gonna be a long and messy thread because im crying now but ive had this pent up anger and sadness for years and im just gonna let it out.

i know that love isnt for everyone, and thats either by choice or circumstances that ahve jaded them to the whole concept

im self aware enough to know that i am a horrible hopeless romantic and at times im too loving, to a fault. i know that this could be viewed as some guy just saying bullshit to try and get some, and if that& #39;s how you view this thread, great. that& #39;s your opinion and, even if its

false, that& #39;s your opinion on me and i& #39;ll accept that and respect it. theres nothing i can do to change others views on me, and that& #39;s entirely up to the reader to make that judgement and form an opinion on.

at the end of the day im using the void as a journal again, sue me

i neevr got to express how i felt to the first girl i caught heavy feelings for. i& #39;ve touched on the reasons why before, and it fucked me up for a lot of reasons. the next three girls i got involved with and fell for cheated on me and that obviously took a toll on me.