The following Thread is a well needed vent over someone that completely shattered me. If you dont want to read it, you 100% dont have to. I just need to get this all off my chest.
Thank you.

bad memories are exploding in my mind again
bad bad bad memories
memories i want to forget
memories i thought i had already forgotten
memories that made me the bipolar mess i am

please stop
please
i want to lose you
i hate you
JUST LEAVE MY HEAD ALREADY.
its been 4 years

you left 6 years ago
i still loved you
and yet
i ment literally NOTHING to you
and i was too dumb to realize that you were the one ruining my life!
i thought you were the one making me happy
but you just made everything worse.
thats all you've ever been good at.
but...
i miss you

you were my best friend
we were always together
you started to manipulate me without me even noticing
i lied for you.
i took the blame for you.
i ruined friendships for you.
you made me a terrible person.
you just needed a reason to hate me.

@/Axena_wolfsong i fucking hate you. you ruined me.

(please don't attack her, she's never active. this thread is here because i needed to vent a bit. the person titled "you" is her, and i havent talked to her for 2 years. last time i saw her, she blamed me for something she did, and that was 4 years ago. it's in the past now.)