#RandomRapha thought (a thread): a lot of people have asked me if I have fallen in love before. The answer is yes. A few years ago I fell in love with someone. Not crush (which I know what that's like), fell in love. We both liked each other and stayed very close.

We both lived far away, but able to stay connected. Plus we have met up with each other, whether it's for our careers or vacation. Also we helped and inspired each other a lot. Many of the things that I've created (like my freestyle videos and choreography) were inspired by him.

Most importantly, I didn't fall in love with because of his looks and talent. I fell in love with his soul. He was my best friend.

We have laughed, cried, and fought through the years. Most importantly...we were happy together.

Until something happened. I was losing him. He was becoming insecure and bitter. I try to help and look after him, until I couldn't get a hold of him...at all.

For almost two years we lost touch. There will be moments of reconnection but it would mostly silence. It was not just me. He would ghost or not talk to our mutual friends either. I beaten myself up thinking I screwed up this genuine relationship/friendship or it was not to be.

Last year was the year that made me realize that all was not lost. From prayer to meeting amazing people (like Rhett & Link) made me understand the wonders and importance of friendship is. Plus second chances do exist.

Last fall I texted him for the first time in a year to say hi. Soon after I received a reply. He apologized for treating me unfairly and ignoring me. Plus he thanked me for being a great friend and checking up on him. I cried tears of joy after receiving that.

We are still connected through text and social media. We haven't met up in person yet, but hopefully we will in the near future.

So about that falling in love question...am I still in love with him? Not in a romantic way like I used to, but I still love him as a friend, a great friend. If he falls in love with someone, I will be so happy for him. I'm not in control of his destiny or love life.

I will still support and stay in touch with him, not matter the distance.

He is a great friend and I'm so blessed to have him in my life and journey.

Yes I am single, but I'm still learning to love myself. I'm not in a rush to date or get married, and I'm okay with that. Being single is not curse. Let me repeat...BEING SINGLE IS NOT A CURSE.

I have so many goals to accomplish and places to explore before I can settle down. Plus I need to improve on my mental health, emotions, and my spirit (which has been improving a lot).

For my friends and mentors that I have met, new and old, I'm so blessed beyond blessed to have them in my life. They are who what keeps me going and inspiring me to share my love and gifts.

There is eros (romantic love) but Agape is the greatest kind of love ever to receive and to be given.

To my dear friend, thank you for being there and inspiring me. We've had our ups and downs, but every single moment with you was the best. Whatever you do or wherever you go, I will still cheer you on. You are awesome, and still keep that gift that makes awesome inside and out.

To my friends and mentors seeing this, I love you all...No matter what. Thank you for supporting me and bringing me joy throughout my life and career. I hope and pray that you continue to keep on being blessed and sharing that love wherever you go.

Much love,
Rapha