a short vent about missing someone

this thread will contain mentions of suicide and maybe self harm so triggerwarning

today its been 6 years since you left us, you would he 25 now and would probably work as something with psychology
but july 8 2014 when you were supposed to come home you decided to never come home again
i dont wanna guilt trip you
i dont wanna disrespect you
i love you

and its not like we dont miss you, we do, every single days of our lives we do
gosh i cant even express how much i miss you
yes i know i was a small introverted kid when we last met and i that hasnt changed but you were part of my family and we all were so excited for you-