hey everyone! I& #39;ve had this account for a while now but didn& #39;t want to start getting too involved until I& #39;d worked through some stuff myself. I guess I& #39;ll start with my transition - I came out as nonbinary at 14, and then a trans man a couple months later just before I turned 15.

I& #39;m from the UK and got a referral for GIDS after I came out, where I had six & #39;therapy& #39; sessions - although I wouldn& #39;t exactly class them as anything close to therapy - and was referred for puberty blockers. I went on the blockers at 16, and testosterone a year after that at 17.

I started uni (I& #39;m a med student) last sept after being on hormones for about 5 months, and my voice dropped pretty quickly so I was stealth - I told a couple of my close friends but apart from that no one knew I& #39;d transitioned.

Sexuality wise, I actually came out as bi when I was either 12 or 13 (before I& #39;d questioned my gender) and then came to the conclusion I was a gay trans guy age 16 and was in a relationship with another trans guy from 16-18.

I& #39;m not sure exactly what triggered it, and I& #39;m sure it was a lot of things over time, but I started questioning things around feb/march this year when I realised I was only attracted to women and stopped testosterone.

For me, the changes from being on hormones for about 9 months haven& #39;t been that permanent. My voice has somehow gone back to pretty much how it was before, I never grew any facial hair, and my face shape is definitely already changing.

What I didn& #39;t expect is that even with my body starting to change again, my dysphoria has pretty much gone. I spent 4 years binding for at least 12 hours every single day, usually from when I woke up to when I went to sleep, but I& #39;m now strangely comfortable with my sex.

There& #39;s no way for me to say one thing that led to my transition - a mix of childhood trauma, an ED, my sexuality and being butch, and spending most of my waking hours online probably all contributed. I was also put on antipsychotics (quetiapine/seroquel) at 15.

I was told I had bipolar - which I definitely don& #39;t - and came off the meds myself about a year and a half ago. I pretty much spent two years with my emotions completely numbed by these drugs, along with essentially going through menopause at 16 so it& #39;s been a pretty wild ride-

-relearning what it& #39;s like to exist just.. naturally? Over the past few months I& #39;ve read a lot, thought a lot, wrote a lot - and still have a long long way to go. It& #39;s been a confusing time but I& #39;m ready to stop lurking and start talking (and maybe make some friendshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👉" title="Rückhand Zeigefinger nach rechts" aria-label="Emoji: Rückhand Zeigefinger nach rechts">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👈" title="Rückhand Zeigefinger nach links" aria-label="Emoji: Rückhand Zeigefinger nach links">)!

ps i& #39;m a massive lefty and sorry this was so long lol