[TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual Harassment, borderline pedophilia & manipulation]

I was sexually harassed and manipulated by my ex boyfriend, Anthony Mandawe, who was 4 years older than me, when i was 12 and 13 years old. (A long thread)

I just wanted to share my story and trauma that i've been dealing with for the past 3 years. My perpetrator, despite his family knowing is still not being held accountable and is being tolerated by his parents as we speak.

It started in April, 2017
12 years old at the time. I was looking for more people to streak with in snapchat, so i randomly added people on the suggested friends list. He dm'ed me asking if i was from the same school and started making small talk.

He added my on my other social media accounts and dmed me there. He kept saying that i was pretty and that he wanted to talk to me.

He kept asking for pictures and selfies of me because my pictures bring him "energy". He requested for swimsuit pictures, me in croptops and sleeveless tops and even one in a bra.

Fast forward to the beginning of grade 8, he really forced me to be M.U with him. I just went with the flow with it lang. We were talking again, then he asked me if he could visit my house. But it ended shortly after my mom found out.

We were talking on and off from there na. Then i finally stopped talking to him november 2017. I thought he was finally out of my life but i was wrong.

He messaged me on March 16, 2018 saying that he wanted to talk to me and apologize. So he went to my house and he said sorry. The i decided to forgive him afterwards. Then he asked me to be his gf, and as much as id want to deny it, i said yes.

Things were going pretty well then he suddenly came to my house on april 4, 2018. He kept asking me if he could stay in my room but i told him no. Then we stayed in the sala then he started kissing me. I kept telling him no but he kept going.

He told me that he'd shout out loud so everyone in my house would hear us. So i decided to just let him inside my room to avoid that. Keep in mind that it was around 1 am when he was there.

After that he asked me to take my shirt off. I told him no. Then he just started kissing me again, but i froze. He started touching me on my chest and my vagina. He even put his hands in my shorts and underwear. I kept grabbing his hand but he kept going.

He grabbed my hand and put it on his dick. Then he unzipped his pants, took his dick out and told me "rub it til it comes out". He kept grabbing my hand and i just kept resisting because i didnt want to do it.0

He even asked "can you chupa me please" then i said no right after. He tried to force me to then i stopped moving right after.

He started touching my chest, he even lifted up my shirt and started to suck on my boobs. Then i kept pushing im after that but he kept forcing it.

I told him to finally leave my house then he left. I didnt tell anyone about it because i was scared. I didnt even know that he sexually harassed me until i told my bestfriend about it.

I messaged dawe after what happened but he just kept giving dry replies. I had this feeling in my gut that he just wanted to be in a relationship with me for his sexual pleasures.

I tried to communicate with him but he just kept ghosting me. Shortly after that, the relationship ended. We stopped talking and i didnt bother to contact him after that. I just kept everything that happened to myself.

I started having panic attacks and breakdowns in school whenever i saw him. In grade 9, my mom slut-shamed me because she found out that i was in a relationship with an older guy. She didnt even know that i was almost raped.

I was suicidal at that time. People in my batch were spreading rumors that i "gave him a blowjob" and i couldnt do anything about it. I tried mixing different chemicals in my house because i couldnt handle it. I was even cutting because my own mother was slut-shaming me too.

I just kept crying and crying. I kept all of that a secret for 2 years now. It felt like a million anchors trying to drag my heart to the bottom of the ocean.

The rumors died down and i continued with my life. Fast forward to grade 10. Around november. I remember he reached out to me chamber theatre time. He said he wanted to meet up with me to "apologize"

I didnt want to meet him in person alone in a random place so i just told him sa school lang. but he kept making excuses. Til wala nalang jud na dayun

I guess i was so desperate for his apology and the reason why he did that to me. I kept messaging him that we should talk, but he wouldnt reply to me.

He messaged me the day after new year with a shitty "apology message"

I just moved on with my life and didnt care anymore because i finally accepted the fact that i wansnt going to get that apology from him and i probably never will.

Fastforward to april 2020. He messaged me once again, saying that he'll finally "apologize". And yet again his reasons were utterly disappointing.

This ugly ass mf, BLAMED ME FOR WHAT HAPPENED ??? HOW DARE YOU BLAME ME FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME. YOUVE CAUSED ME SO MUCH EMOTIONAL TRAUMA AND YOU CANNOT PAY ME FOR ALL THOSE YEARS.

The conversation ended there. I didnt know what to do. So i just ended up crying and crying. But i knew i had to move forward from this traumatic situation. It took me 3 years to finally share my story on my finsta.

I figured out my next step but ppl were telling me to inform his mom first before i did anything else. I dont even know why i still thought of being nice and respecful to them when they dont even take me seriously.

I have never ever heard any story of a victim reaching out to her abuser's mother. But because ppl were telling me to do the right thing i reached out to her so we could settle on something. But she chose to defend her son and offer prayers instead of a solution .

He even tried to contact my friends to tell me that i have to reply to him daw ???????? I dont owe you anything anymore. Stop reaching out to MY friends asking him to spill my plans.

Sooo his mom just messaged me and tried to call me but i dont want to answer it. Tita, anak nimo way ayo nya imo pa sha i defend ? Nya tita when i bring this to court you pray sad for the judge ha ? Pray that the lord will touch his heart to forgive your son's crimes.

Tita, i understand how you feel right now but why dont you seem to care about what i feel ? I shared my story with you and you couldnt even acknowledge that ? Youre just sorry because you know youre son's future is in my hands and i am more than ready to bring this to court.

A really close tito of mine is a lawyer and his friends are all lawyers and some are even judges. I gave you the time and freedom to communicate with me because i didnt want to bring this to court. But youre just pushing me to my limits at this point.

I have given your family the leeway to freely discuss this with me to settle it. You just love to test my patience do you ? I have given you the chance to apologize and work with me to figure out a solution but you just wasted it.

I am sick and tired of constantly being nice and respectful to you and youre family. When you all dont deserve it. I am tired of you constantly gaslighting me and manipulating me i have had ABSOLUTELY ENOUGH OF YOUR BULLSHIT

My family, lawyers, therapist and i have already decided to file a case against you. Dont worry, youre mom will just pray for you also.

The past 3 years have been one hell if a toxic roller-coaster ride. I pray for that day, when this reaches court and the judge will finallt say that you are under arrest.

Yes i know that i had my own set of short-comings and mistakes. I wasnt perfect but at least i didnt sexually harass a person and almost drove the person to kill themselves.

to his mother, who is still trying to defend him PLEASE JUST STOP. youre just going to hurt yourself trying to prove his innocence. Hold him accountable for his wrongdoings and for once STOP TRYING TO CODDLE HIM. HE'S 19 AND HE KNOWS DAMN WELL WHAT HE'S DOING !!!!!

To everyone who has been dm'ing me and to those who even liked and rt'ed this for me i really really appreciate it. Thank you for helping me share my story and for believing in me. I love all of u even if i dont know some of y'all personally. Thank you so much

Finally to Anthony Mandawe, see you in court and jail soon

Thank you again to everyone who read this. Ik that ppl have gone through worse and i am super thankful that an even greater tragedy did not occur. NO ONE deserves to go through what ive been through. I would never wish this on ANYONE. Not even my enemies

To people who are still friends with rapists and abusers, do yourself and everyone else a favor and call that person out and hold them accountable. They deserve to face the consequences of their disgusting actions.

Again, i am so grateful that i am privileged enough to have supportive friends and family. I am so lucky that i have all the resources and help i need to report this bastard. I am thankful that i have gathered the courage to finally share my story and hopefully inspire others.

Another addition to this thread. ANOTHER SHITTY APOLOGY MESSAGE FROM THE ONE AND ONLY

For the past couple of weeks i have been losing my appetite, vomiting a lot, and having a breakdown every single night. I was hiding from this harsh truth for 3 years. Now i guess ure doing the same now that all your friends know.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA SIG CHAT SA AKONG MGA MIGO OY WEAKSHIT BA