Thread by @rauhling_bizzle, posting this late at 11:30pm because none of my followers are awake [...]

posting this late at 11:30pm because none of my followers are awake so this gives me an excuse to confess like two things and leave

Stop liking this—

goddamn it okay sksk 1. My poetry is very gay and talks about sex, love, nature, healing, trauma, all kinds of shit. I wanna get published someday

2. I’m from oregon

3. I hope to be an art therapist that specializes in LGBTQ+, BIPOC, & incarcerated youth

4. I’m an Aquarius sun, Cancer moon, Scorpio rising

so like I’m either feeling everything or nothing at all.. and I’m kinda crazy LMFAOOO

5. I’m an eclectic witch! I work with Aphrodite and Odin, very opposite of each other hahaha I love them both very dearly. Aphrodite inspires me to have self love, heal, and love others hard while Odin inspires me to learn, write, have strength and be humble in wisdom

6. I hope to get my paintings or one or two in an art museum. I’ve had it in a gallery once in high school but I’d love to do something more legit

7. In high school, I used to pretend to be a mythical creature along with my other friends sksks I was a night elf, two of my friends were wolves, one was a vampire and claimed there was a vampire war w/ his “evil brother” to protect some key to another dimension???? LMFAOOOO

8. My favorite artists: Tame Impala, 80’s shit, Michael jackson, yes I listen to Justin Bieber look at my fuckin username and my bio lmao, Ariana Grande, Girl In Red, Lady Gaga, Lizzo, 90’s rap, uhh literally everything except country and dubstep. Oh we stan Def Leppard btw

9. I don’t have a relationship with my biological dad but my step dad is the absolute best

my mom is like a sprinkle of toxic hehehe my whole family on her side needs therapy

but the irony is they work in fields involving helping people

10. I have two best friends, Kenzie and Shane. They don’t have Twitter! They’ve been in my life for a solid decade now. 13-23. It’s some crazy shit, man. We grew up together and separately. Shane and I have a pact that if we’re single at 40 we’re getting married LMFAO

11. okay something that’s been eating away at me...I went on like literally two dates with someone forever ago and while it didn’t work out, I haven’t stopped crushing on them and it is a NIGHTMARE because THEY DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL, BYE

12. Actually something I should admit, I feel like I have a crush on most of my attractive gay friends. Not all of them to the same degree! But there’s mutuals on here that I’m like...I’d literally date you if you asked...

13. Backpeddling to the witch thing: I’ve always had weird stuff happen to me. It started when I was a kid and I could do shit i didn’t think were possible. I think everything I did has lead up to this. All related to Aphrodite. Also have abilities that have changed or evolved

14. I wrote fanfiction when I was 16-17 and tbh I’m still kinda proud of it

15. Speaking of writing! I’ve written two fiction stories and I am so deeply proud of one of them, I want it to be published so bad. It’s completely edited and perfect. I won’t spoil it but basically it’s Black Mirror’s love child.

16. I feel like ppl are gonna ask me wtf I can do.
-precognition
-accidental manifestation LMAO
-empath
-natural healer
-prophetic dreams
-intuitive

17. When I was little, I was playing alone w/ sticks and moss and tied it together & asked for a thunderstorm. 45 minutes later it happened but it started flooding and that rain felt like we were in a shower. It’s never rained that hard since. Lightning touched the ground even.

18. The first time I ever saw spirits was when me & my mom were driving to a cemetery to see her dad. In the car I looked out the window and saw three young adults sitting in the grass with 70’s clothing and they just stared at me. A look away. A min later I look & they’re gone.

19. Believe it or not, I actually used to be very camera shy. But as I got older, I started gaining more confidence and discovered how much I liked the camera. A modeling opportunity came and I fell in love. Since then I’ve never known peace bc I spent too much time editing pics

20. Bitch I fucking love anime. I’m in the middle of starting Attack On Titan because everyone keeps hyping it up. But here are my faves! Black Butler (I am in love with Sebastian, bye), Tokyo Ghoul, Death Note, Blood+, Ghost Hound, Ghost Hunt, these are at the top of my head!

21. ...I listen to the theme songs. BECAUSE WHY THE FUCK NOT

22. I will never get rid of my stuffed animals

23. My coming out story is a fun one. Basically my mom caught me fucking my girlfriend at the time and I had to come out but it’s actually really funny looking back. But don’t worry! I’ve had two other chances to come out and they went much better!

24. I wouldn’t take back any of my exes. I’ve had enough suffering.

25. I don’t like when people disrespect my emotional boundaries. I’m an empath so I literally need them to be okay. But I’ve had toxic people take advantage of that and I’ve had to cut them off only resulting in them getting pissed off. Shows their true colors I guess.

26. I’ve got a stupid dumb soft spot for butches. I don’t know, but no matter how many times I get hurt by them I just keep going back because I am a clown

sumn about those anger issues and alcoholism just be spicy

27. I’M KIDDING OMG PLEASE I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF TOXIC BUTCHES

28. I genuinely get completely bored if someone I’m talking to romantically is not mentally stimulating me. Like I lose interest fr if we’re talking about plain shit or surface level stuff. I’m probably single because my standards are very high.

29. I saw Shakespire’s grave. Pretty cool

30. My favorite disney princesses will always be Jasmine, Cinderella, and Tiana.

31. I sing disney songs almost every day.

32. Oh fun fact I used to be in choir in high school lmao

33. Biggest turn offs: people who smack their food when they eat like a damn animal. What the fuck. People who don’t wash their legs or feet. People who say “lol” “wyd” every 15 minutes. People who are all bark and no bite. Hickies freak me out. Do not call me a bitch um??

34. Biggest turn ons: someone who will talk poetry with me or art with me. Or psychology. People who respect my boundaries. People who make me laugh the hardest. People who bring me peace. Neck kisses. People who pull me into their thoughts. Good kissers. Calling me princesa.

35. I’m such a “look at the moon” ass bitch

36. I’ve only been in love once. My first love doesnt count.

37. My dream date? Lemme go on a date with Ruby Rose or Kate Moennig or Paris Jackson if she was single

38. I don’t like femmes at all

39. I’ve traveled to Europe and it was beautiful and I’d love to go back. This time to Rome or Paris

40. I wanna get married but I don’t want kids.

41. My idea of a perfect date? I’ve said it before but: dinner, wine, moonlit walk, talking about art/photography/poetry/our lives, sitting and looking at the stars, making out, and cuddling

42. The beach is my ultimate favorite place on this earth. Nothing compares to the Oregon coast I cannot stress this enough. It holds so many memories for me and traditions.

43. Yes I am very very single LMAO

44. I’m short as fuck I’m 5”2

45. Here are 5 ways to win my heart: be woke on Black Lives Matter, LGBTQ+ issues, mental health, and care about quarantine. Making me food. Making me feel loved and appreciated. Reciprocating what I give you. Communicating effectively!!

46. I think the first thing I notice about someone is their face specifically their eyes

47. The sexist thing someone could ever do for me is give me a back massage

48. I’ve always wanted to try roleplay like I stg I have such a thing for people in positions of power & like uniforms

49. Yes I’ve got kinks and what about it

tie me up daddy (BELLA STOP LMFAOOOO)

50. I feel like I’d know if someone genuinely loves me if they wrote a poem about me

51. My dirtiest secret is that I used to be straight

I’ll do the rest in the morning!

52. ok hi. Hmm here’s 5 mutuals I find attractive:
@kkiannax_
@casandrapgb
@rain_av_ery
@notgarycooper_
@solflovver

53. My first kiss was when I was 13 and I kissed my boyfriend at the time at JCPENNY HAHAHAH

54. I can do long distance but I couldn’t date someone from another country

55. My favorite Disney movies will always be Alice in Wonderland and Peter Pan

56. Omfg speaking of Peter Pan I was soo obsessed with him that I wrote him letters SkSKSJSJ i was basically like “pls take me to Neverland” and I found a letter that he “wrote back” but I’m positive it was just my mom LMFAO despite the insanely different handwriting

57. Ok but the tooth fairy is actually real 100%. I posted about it before but long story short my mom saved my baby teeth and I wondered what would happen if I put them under my pillow and they were gone and I found $100. Months later, my mom asked me where they were..ma’am

58. OH as a kid I was obsessed with mermaids too, I used to come up with fake chants to summon them to talk to me at the beach (oh now look at me, I’m a whole ass witch) mermaids are basically another type of fae I’m screaming

59. I’m an introvert but I can have extrovert tendencies. I tend to be more extroverted when I’m around my friends or people who bring me peace

60. The 5 most important things for me in a relationship are
-trust
-honesty
-communication
-intimacy
-respect

61. I don’t currently like anyone which is a weird feeling. I’ve never gone this long without catching feelings. But ya know I’m kinda just living my life and the right person will come around eventually. Aphrodite wants me to meet someone though DEKSKEK

62. The coolest dreams I’ve ever had:
-I saw an angel while I was in the sky (an ophanim)
-I saw three different moons outside
-My roof was gone and i saw stars as I held a grimoire
-I was floating in space and saw planets
-I dove in a pool where there was treasure at the bottom

63. I’ve posted this before but my deal breakers of a relationship:
-not being an activist for BLM, LGBT+ issues, BIPOC
-wanting kids
-does drugs
-doesn’t respect consent or my boundaries
-abusive behavior
-tries to control me
-isn’t receptive to my feelings
-cheating & lying

64. Ok I’ll tell you what I’m afraid of:
-death
-having life threatening issues
-eating nuts (but I feel safe eating almonds)
-Spiders
-having anything wrong w/ me that I can’t figure out
-having health issues
-driving
-being forgotten
-my own trauma
-some people scare me

65. Worst date I’ve ever been on! so I went to an art museum and at first it was quite nice. But she progressively got more annoying?? Eventually we had dinner and HER INSESSANT CHEWING WAS INSANE. She looked like this mf. When it ended she waited for me to kiss her and I DIPPED

66. Biggest pet peeves:
-when my mom comments about my body or my hair
-when my mom asks if I’m wearing a bra
-when people have BLM on their profile but don’t actually tweet about it
-when I get gaslit
-when people underestimate me
-when people lie to me or can’t be honest

67. What do I daydream about? Mostly me on a beach dancing at night, cute date ideas I have with an imaginary butch gf, what it would be like to be in Wonderland or Neverland, what if my stuffed animals could talk or my plants or my dogs? what will my wedding be like? or sex LMAO

68. I can’t really say what my dream home is but I have so many vibes:
-city apartment in a skyscraper, wearing a big shirt on a balcony drinking wine
-cottagecore wlw moment; baking pies while my wife gardens
-lovely house with an art studio and room for my plants
-beach house

69. I feel like most ppl see my personality but this what I think I am:
-sweet
-funny
-dramatic; hehe it’s the Scorpio rising
-loving
-empathetic
-kinky
-angel
-helpful
-intelligent (B.S. in psych fuck off)
-a lil vain sometimes
-am baby
-big gossip
-loves attention
-sassy!!!

70. Most dangerous thing I’ve done is almost fucking die like 3 times. I smoked fake weed in high school and literally could’ve died and my friends just fucking laughed at me. I almost died in chicago from a car almost hitting me. I could’ve died in the snow (long story).

71. I often get mistaken for being straight and it honestly really irks me BECAUSE I JUST WANNA DRESS HOW I WANT WITHOUT PEOPLE THINKING I LIKE CISHET MEN

72. I don’t have any tattoos or piercings am sorry

73. I gravitate towards sci-fi, horror, psychological thrillers, romcoms, anything gay
I like stranger things, lost girl, friends, dead to me, the circle, You, once upon a time, the list goes on

74. My favorite youtubers: Jenna Marbles

jacksepticeye, safiya &
Tyler, simplynailogical, threadbanger, Cody Ko, Noel Miller, Kurtis Conner, Drew Gooden, Danny Gonzales, a few more

75. Omfg favorite video games!! The Last of Us 1 & 2, Life is Strange 1 & 2, Detroit Become Human (my name is Connor), beyond two souls, Heavy Rain, Death Stranding, the walking dead, little nightmares, layers of fear, corpse party, until dawn

76. Favorite books are Not A Sound & Girl On The Train!!

77. My favorite holiday has always been Christmas but in the last few years it’s been a stressful time because we’ve had to incorporate blending in a new family and new traditions and we’re both trying to hang on to them

78. If I could have one super power, I’d want to be immortal

79. If I could use the death note one time, I’d write the cheeto in office in there

80. If I had to be turned into another being, I’d obviously be a mermaid duh

81. If I could switch my life with someone for a day...I’d wanna choose between Hailey Bieber for obvious reasons but I also really wanna be Rihanna

82. The only time I’ve ever laughed the hardest was hanging out with this dapper ass beech @KaneSugar333

83. My favorite part of myself is probably my smile

84. Worst pain I ever felt...I can’t really compare any of them but heartbreak is always the absolute worst. Trauma as well.

85. I think the best compliment I’ve ever received is “you have siren like tweeting powers” from @the_oflaherty

86. Something in a show that changed my life was in The L Word Gen Q when Angelica tells her bff she has feelings for her. My inner trauma was WAITING for her to turn her down & say sumn homophobic BUT SHE LIKED HER BACK. I PAUSED IT AND CRIED. I felt so seen. I felt comfort.

87. I collected alot of shit as a kid. I still do? Seashells, shinies, trinkets, flowers, crystals, jewelry. No wonder I work w/ Aphrodite, I’m telling u I’ve been doing witchy shit since forever I just didn’t know it. I EVEN FOUND A HAG STONE. Still have it all these years later

88. My favorite comfort foods will always be pot roast, corn bread, ramen and soup

89. My favorite seasons are fall and winter. Warm blankets, childhood memories, a sense of innocence, hot cocoa, pumpkin spice, a sense of joy when the snow falls, Christmas movies, big scarves, hand holding, the foggy days, the crispy leaves, the heavy rain UGHHHH

90. I am the most comfortable when I’m with Kenzie or I’m alone in bed watching Friends or Jenna Marbles

91. I’ve had phone sex a few times and the first time I did it I wanted to DIE because we were like roleplaying as demons??? I WAS 16 LEAVE ME ALONE and then the last time I did it um—you know what lemme shut up she got a gf now

but

92. I am technically a switch but like I’m 90% submissive and 10% top tendencies and it only really comes out when I’m angry

93. I could never have a threesome because listen...I am already way too much to handle. I am a fireball and I’d just end up bored and wanna do everything myself

94. I have too many friends I’m sexually attracted to and it’s really messy and I need to stop it

95. Uh well my nudes are ethereal and that’s all you need to know

96. My favorite pet names I loved to be called: baby, princess or princesa, my love, honey, angel, beauty, love, babygirl, my girl, sweetheart, darlin or darling, or ya know the classic..kitten

97. Three things I love: dreaming, dancing, laughing

98. My longest relationship lasted almost 2 years

99. If I was allowed to make three wishes I’d wish for racism, homophobia, transphobia, etc to not exist, end world hunger & homelessness, & relive some memories

100. I’m definitely a night owl that’s why I do all my magick past midnight

101. Top things I have to carry with me when I go out: my Louis Vuitton hehe, my phone, water bottle, anti-anxiety cube, a snack, my wallet, my glasses, charger

102. Bitch I fuck it up in the kitchen fr. I can cook omelets, spaghetti, some fuckin ribs

I can make crepes too!

103. If I could go on a road trip with people I’d choose my gay GC

104. Things I need to work on...well I need to focus on detachment, being more vocal and diligent about my boundaries, working out more, working through my trauma more

105. 7 mutuals I’d love to go to the fair with if that was possible:
@King_White13 @Bekah_Cameron @hollyxmacdonald @vkarekinian @piscesposhh @killingcandace @lemonboii_

106. A mutual I would kiss: @ayoitssabryna
A mutual I would marry: @ashmorgzmc
A mutual I would kill: @rauhling_bizzle (IM KIDDING)

107. Favorite cover of a song is Marilyn Manson’s Tainted Love

108. How I deal with sexual tension? I just make it worse

109. Someone i regret meeting? My assailant

110. If I could call one person dead or alive it would be Michael Jackson

111. If I won the lottery, I’d use it to take my gay GC on the cabin trip we’re slowly planning, donate it to gofundme’s for trans people, donate it to non-profit organizations helping with BLM, give some of it to be best friend, pay off my student debt

112. If I was gonna get famous for anything it would probably be for a viral tweet—oh wait a minute...

113. I’ve only ever had one secret admirer. It was in middle school and the boy never talked to me but my friend told me he liked me. She set us up on a lunch date and he kept stumbling his words and ran off and I thought it was cute

114. I don’t hold grudges. I’ve lost some friendships but I don’t regret being friends with them. To this day I have no idea what i did to them personally LMAO but I wish them the best in life always. They’re good people, they’re just trash at communicating

115. Believe it or not I can do impressions! I can sound like Poof from Fairly Oddparents and Truffles from Chowder

116. Something most people don’t know about me...i didn’t have Black friends until college. Not by choice.

117. My last relationship ended for a lot of different reasons. It was messy as fuck and something me and my ex had to work through for months. We good now though and it was definitely a lesson learned

118. Three things I look for in someone physically: nice hair, pretty smile, someone who’s got some meat or muscle on them, ion like the real scrawny lookin mfs because my fat ass will kill you

119. Three things I look for in someone emotionally: empathetic, kind, and mature

120. Three things I look for in a connection: good chemistry, sexy, sarcastic

121. Three of my favorite qualities in someone else: confidence, good head on their shoulders, intelligent

122. Three of my least favorite qualities in someone else: arrogant, unnecessarily rude, and selfish

123. Three of my favorite qualities about myself: good hearted, always wanting to learn, my passion for things

124. Three of my least favorite qualities about myself: I hate when I jump to the worst conclusions, I can be annoying, and I suck at establishing my boundaries

125. Three gifts I love getting: money, witchy shit, and flowers

126. I don’t get jealous easily when I’m in a healthy relationship. If someone flirts with my partner or worse I trust them to handle it. And then I’d plop a big kiss on their neck LMFAOO

127. Yes I’ve been cheated on and it SUCKS

128. Weirdest thing I’ve ever made

129. I can be in the talking stage for a month but then going on 2 months imma be like “ok so we finna date or what”

130. Favorite thing to do on a Friday night? Curl up and order take out while in my bean bag chair

131. If I was to ever become a YouTuber it would definitely be for story times.

132. I don’t think there is a universal idea of what happens to use when we die. I believe that whatever happens is what we want to happen.

133. I’ve never been arrested because I’m a good noodle

134. Most embarassing story. I can’t tell you that because it’s traumatic but here’s this one. Well I was with my crush and he was sitting on a branch and I sat next to him and it fucking broke and we both fell in swamp water

135. If I woke up as the opposite sex, I’d be very confused and frankly I would not want to touch my dick because ew get it off me

136. If I could relive an age, I’d pick 14 because the summer of 2011 was the best time of my life

137. My favorite pokemon is always gonna be pikachu leave me alone

138. Where do I see myself in ten years? Well I’d love to be married to the love of my life WHENEVER THEY DECIDE TO SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET YA KNOW ANY DAY NOW, having my art therapy career, making a name for myself as a pdx model, poet, artist. Id love to be a speaker for BIPOC

139. The greatest decision I ever made was cutting my dad out of my life

140. I don’t like living with regrets but I do regret not making some moments last longer

141. I don’t think there’s a paricular reason as to why all of this was created (earth, humans, etc) but I do believe that we can make our lives purposeful by making our impact in the world in our own way

142. Here’s my take on the meaning of life: I think everyone has a different purpose and it’s up to us to find our own meaning. We can create meaning by living authentically and contributing to impact the world around us

143. Listen I don’t wanna die but like I know it’s inevitable so like when I die I’d rather go peacefully in my sleep because I don’t wanna feel it I will freak out. And I wanna go in the dirt. I wanna be a corpse. How fun will it be to be in the d i r t

144. The last person I kissed was months ago for a date and it was just a peak, it was nice

145. omfg the worst kiss I ever had was when this bitch thought kissing me was GNAWING ON MY FUCKING BOTTOM LIP and my lip swelled up and I HAD TO GO HOME AND PUT AN ICE PACK ON MY FACE

146. I WANT TO WRITE SOMEONE A LOVE LETTER SO BAD. I am dying. I want to yearn

147. Yes I sing in the shower and when I clean I am a Disney Princess

148. My favorite pies are apple and pumpkin

149. Not that I need to explain it but I am queer! I love this sexuality because I just like who I like and I don’t have to define it in such a strict way. But I am attracted to anyone who is AFAB

150. My oracle is always yelling at me to go spend time clearing my thoughts alone and cater to myself more

151. I hate a “I don’t like sushi” ass bitch omg grow up

152. One time I got detention for eating too slow

153. My sex drive is way too high for a bitch who hasn’t had sex in years

154. I am 100% an open book. I don’t understand people who can’t be vulnerable but I respect people who need time to open up slowly with time and patience. But I’d never over share. There are some things I don’t say like on the first date ya know

155. I don’t think I’m easy or hard to love, I just think I’m on a goddess level and both men and women and those in between just be intimidated

156. Judging from random images I get in my head and from dreams, these are my past lives:
-Egyptian priestess
-Some kind of muse who lived in a temple in the sky surrounded by water
-someone in the medieval times
-an archaeologist???

157. My guilty pleasure is Most Popular Girls in School...

158. My bad habits..well I have a habit of not eating when I’m sad. When I self destruct. When I pick my lips. When I dont comb my hair. When I get really petty

159. Someone I look up to is Lizzo but also Amber Wagner

160. I grew up in Salem, Oregon so I’m born and raised but moved to Portland for college and now I’ve been living here since

161. Favorite Studio Ghibli films: My Neighbor Totoro, Kiki’s Delivery Service, Spirited Away and Princess Mononoke

162. I don’t believe in love at first sight

163. I do believe in soulmates and that there are different types of soulmates

LAST ONE FINALLY.
164. I’d cosplay just so I can do thirst traps with a hot person on tiktok and that’s probably the only reason I’d date someone who cosplayed

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