And with that, the Starry 4-Year Virtual Anniversary Subathon Event comes to a close. These past two weeks have been some of the most fun I've ever had as a content creator and VTuber.

7k followers. 803 subs. I'm speechless.

Thank you everyone. Thank you so so very much.

I am absolutely mind-poggled. Just...thank you everyone for all of your love and support. For believing in and sharing my dreams.

For giving me and my goofs a chance. For wanting to make memories together and joining on this wild and wacky journey. Thank you.

This event will ultimately make moving easier and give me a safe buffer when I get my bottom surgery. I am in tears...I just thank you so so very much.

I was really nervous and honestly scared about tonight's stream especially. Why? Well here's a bit of backstory!

Five years ago, I use to do almost exclusively Pokemon and Pokemon GO content. The latter bringing me more viewership than I or my moderation team was prepared for.

We're talking upwards of close to 2,000 people on the, "best," days. Which you know was really cool on paper --

but couldn't be any farther from that.

It didn't at all reflect the kind of community I wanted to nurture. It was so gosh darn toxic, riddled with a lot of transphobic bile that was spewed at me. Going so far as being mistreated at GO meetups.

This all happened at a time --

where I was finally starting to live as myself. Finding my self-image, who I was in essence. Just coming out of a really bad relationship too.

What transpired absolutely destroyed me further in a social sense and in a personal sense. It was a trial by fire when I was vulnerable.

Coupled with being pressured to apply for partner by someone who is well and out of my life and called stupid for not taking a step I didn't feel ready for...I totally shut down.

After that...I took a lot of time to myself to figure out if I wanted to continue pursuing --

anything creative any longer.

I decided to keep going, to do things in the way I wanted to do them. No matter how many people naysayed me.

So I took a more virtual approach, became a character I created who was my reflection. A reflection I aspired to become.

Laid the foundation for a community, a guild, with the intention of nurturing a space where people could find themselves, be themselves, learn about the LGBT community, laugh and smile.

A family.

A support network that I knew others needed. Like I needed it.

I made FFXIV my main game, met so many incredible people, and many more by branching out...and realizing I was a VTuber on top of everything else.

I planned asset phases. Built a world. Drafted a plan for myself.

I prepped and planned for a long time to do something like this.

All while balancing my VO dreams and my transition. As best as I could anyway. Life's a lot sometimes.

But all of that...the past five years. Tonight was the culmination of all those feelings. All the planning, all the therapy, all the successes, all the failures, all the love.

Of a dream that isn't just my own anymore. Of a dream shared, of a life lit by stars. A dream reached by the support of those around me and my own efforts.

Today I was scared of streaming. I felt like I had all those years ago. Small and terrified.

But I did it anyway.

Even though I was scared of having transphobic slurs thrown in my face. I took a step forward...and then it was pushed forward by Stella and everyone I hold close and love as they said.

"This time will be different. It's your time."

And it was. This time was different.

I came out of that stream feeling brighter and happier than I ever had before. I feel like I've become what I've aspired to be in that reflection.

Like I've finally broke the chains of my past completely.

This was made possible by everyone I've met. Everything I've done.

Everything that's happened. Though a bumpy ride.

It was a journey I needed to take. To heal. To learn. To grow. To forgive myself. To be vulnerable and listen. To just be.

A journey of actualization. Becoming. Realization. One that was hard at times, but it's my journey.

A journey I am proud to have taken.

A journey that's far from over. I still have some growing, healing, living and learning to do.

A neverending quest for the stars. One I hope you all continue to join me on.

And to finish off this thread, I wanted to thank @Trixify, @T1ggles, @Xyros9, @NickNMedia, @Cinnamon__Bunn, @SimplyTwoTV, @clown_depot, @BeedropsArt, and @bungotaiga for all the raids!!!

Thank you for bringing your folks with you. It's an honor as always.

I seriously cannot wait for what comes next. What we'll do next.

Together.

Thank you. From the bottom of my starry heart everyone.