I've hit rock bottom. There's no one I can talk to. I'm locked inside myself with raw emotions & I'm screaming to get let out. I want to disappear & I can't even do that. I made promises to people to stay here and suffer, but I lost myself.
Fuck I don't even know if I had myself.

What happened to me? I used to pick myself up no matter often or hard I fell. Now I'm pity tweeting on on my phone cause I don't have anyone to talk to.

Even if I did they won't understand. The only people who might understand are my seven guys cause they've written songs that describe my trauma with freaky accuracy. But they can't save me. I just want someone to save.

I just want someone to save me. I've become numb because I choose not to feel.
When I choose to feel I hurt too much.
I just want someone to save me.

I just saw there's a run ep scheduled for tmr. And I didn't see one last week. So given everything I said on this thread, I'm kinda glad I have something to look forward to tmr. It's the first positive feeling I've had since I went into this shitty headspace.