I& #39;ve hit rock bottom. There& #39;s no one I can talk to. I& #39;m locked inside myself with raw emotions & I& #39;m screaming to get let out. I want to disappear & I can& #39;t even do that. I made promises to people to stay here and suffer, but I lost myself.
Fuck I don& #39;t even know if I had myself.

What happened to me? I used to pick myself up no matter often or hard I fell. Now I& #39;m pity tweeting on on my phone cause I don& #39;t have anyone to talk to.

Even if I did they won& #39;t understand. The only people who might understand are my seven guys cause they& #39;ve written songs that describe my trauma with freaky accuracy. But they can& #39;t save me. I just want someone to save.

I just want someone to save me. I& #39;ve become numb because I choose not to feel.
When I choose to feel I hurt too much.
I just want someone to save me.

I just saw there& #39;s a run ep scheduled for tmr. And I didn& #39;t see one last week. So given everything I said on this thread, I& #39;m kinda glad I have something to look forward to tmr. It& #39;s the first positive feeling I& #39;ve had since I went into this shitty headspace.