7 years ago
My mom told me to give my dad a call, he wasn’t feeling too well
When I called him, he said everything was fine, he just got out of the hospital, he temporarily lost feelings in his legs & collapsed
Didn’t think anything of it
Few weeks later, she calls again..
My mom told me to give my dad a call, he wasn’t feeling too well
When I called him, he said everything was fine, he just got out of the hospital, he temporarily lost feelings in his legs & collapsed
Didn’t think anything of it
Few weeks later, she calls again..
This time she was more worried and said he was back in the hospital
When I called him he said he couldn’t feel his legs
Come to find out he had Pancreatic Cancer
I went on google to find out what that was..
I prepared myself for what was coming
When I called him he said he couldn’t feel his legs
Come to find out he had Pancreatic Cancer
I went on google to find out what that was..
I prepared myself for what was coming
At the moment I was in the Army stationed at Fort Carson, Colorado
My dad was living in Phoenix Arizona.
I had to make the drive out there to hang with him
My dad was living in Phoenix Arizona.
I had to make the drive out there to hang with him
I told my unit, my supervisor said they needed a Red Cross message in order to let me leave
....my dad is dying....a red cross message?
I have more than enough leave days (vacation days)
Just let me go......
The Red Cross finally called
My unit LET ME go for 10 days...
....my dad is dying....a red cross message?
I have more than enough leave days (vacation days)
Just let me go......
The Red Cross finally called
My unit LET ME go for 10 days...
The key word is “let me”
The feeling of someone having control of when I can go somewhere and for how long was crushing me
I needed to be on the road, not waiting for some message
My family needed me
my pops needed me
The feeling of someone having control of when I can go somewhere and for how long was crushing me
I needed to be on the road, not waiting for some message
My family needed me
my pops needed me
I pack up my car and drove for 12 hours to Phoenix, Arizona
My dad was there in the hospital, laughing, clowning and sleeping a lot
He kept sending us out of the hospital
I don’t think he liked for people to see him physically weak
My dad was there in the hospital, laughing, clowning and sleeping a lot
He kept sending us out of the hospital
I don’t think he liked for people to see him physically weak
The doctors told us it wasn’t looking good and he wouldn’t have that long to live.
He would ask me things like should I keep going to radiation ( it was killing him faster)
I had no fucking clue what to answer, I would just keep saying
You’re a fighter dad, keep fighting
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He would ask me things like should I keep going to radiation ( it was killing him faster)
I had no fucking clue what to answer, I would just keep saying
You’re a fighter dad, keep fighting
Day after day I would just hang with him
Keep in mind, I only have permission to be gone from unit for 10 days
Day 9 rolled around..
Doctors said he only has about 3/4 days left..
I called my unit and told my supervisor about what was going on and I needed a few more days..
Keep in mind, I only have permission to be gone from unit for 10 days
Day 9 rolled around..
Doctors said he only has about 3/4 days left..
I called my unit and told my supervisor about what was going on and I needed a few more days..
She told me that my only option is to drive back to the unit
And I BETTER be there before my leave days are up or I would be marked AWOL
I know she could’ve let me stay and told the command what was going on...
She was playing some sick mind game
And I BETTER be there before my leave days are up or I would be marked AWOL
I know she could’ve let me stay and told the command what was going on...
She was playing some sick mind game
I drove 12 hours back to my unit
Filled out a piece a paper, she didn’t get it approved by the command until the next day
More games she was playing
But it allowed me to get some sleep
Woke up and started to make the drive back
Got the call that my dad has passed..
Filled out a piece a paper, she didn’t get it approved by the command until the next day
More games she was playing
But it allowed me to get some sleep
Woke up and started to make the drive back
Got the call that my dad has passed..
I wasn’t there
I could’ve been there but I wasn’t in control of my time
There’s no reason why I shouldn’t have been there
No matter my job
No matter where I’m located in the world
Nothing should hold me back
I needed freedom
I could’ve been there but I wasn’t in control of my time
There’s no reason why I shouldn’t have been there
No matter my job
No matter where I’m located in the world
Nothing should hold me back
I needed freedom
I made the decision to place my freedom over everything in this world
I need to start taking things more serious so I can walk away from my job and live life on my own terms.
My father was gone
My safety net was gone
And I didn’t want to live asking for permission anymore
I need to start taking things more serious so I can walk away from my job and live life on my own terms.
My father was gone
My safety net was gone
And I didn’t want to live asking for permission anymore
I didn’t have much anger toward her, how can I?
People will fuck you over if you give them the chance
People will take advantage, if you give the chance
In my mind, I just couldn’t give anyone else the chance
The only way to minimize the chances is to become self sufficient
People will fuck you over if you give them the chance
People will take advantage, if you give the chance
In my mind, I just couldn’t give anyone else the chance
The only way to minimize the chances is to become self sufficient
Now that I’m a father it’s my duty to free myself of a job
My family is more important than any job anyone can offer
My time is limited, children will only be young for a flash in time, i’d rather spend this time with them vs sitting at a desk making someone else wealthy
My family is more important than any job anyone can offer
My time is limited, children will only be young for a flash in time, i’d rather spend this time with them vs sitting at a desk making someone else wealthy
7 years later I’ve very thankful to have experienced that
It taught me so much
It reminded me life isn’t a game
At any moment everything can change, you have to be prepared.
I started taking saving my money seriously
I was only 21, 3 years removed from being poor
It taught me so much
It reminded me life isn’t a game
At any moment everything can change, you have to be prepared.
I started taking saving my money seriously
I was only 21, 3 years removed from being poor
No one can live this life for you, it’s yours
When it’s your time to die, you will die alone
If someone is effected by the outcome of a decision but you will be..
Than you need to be the decision maker
Don’t leave matters in anyone’s hands
Fight your fight
Find freedom
When it’s your time to die, you will die alone
If someone is effected by the outcome of a decision but you will be..
Than you need to be the decision maker
Don’t leave matters in anyone’s hands
Fight your fight
Find freedom