May ishare lang ako I have been ia here for idk how long. My anxiety keeps getting worse, kahapon I told my mom I kept breaking down especially at night. But, I never heard any comforting words from her. She just told me "wag kang isip ng isip. Its all on your mind"

I haven't been sleeping well this past few weeks. Himala na if I get 3 hrs of sleep in total, max na yon. Sharing this is so hard for me, kasi yung akala kong wala na at nadefeat ko na hindi pala nawala. Its been 2 years since I last felt so drained and empty but here I am++

Now feeling the same way I felt before. Heavier and emptier than before. I can never push myself to talk to anyone about what's really going on with my mind, I'm too scared of my own self and what I can do. I don't want to do something that I might regret, I'm just wishing++

Someday that feeling will finally leave me alone. So I could be happy, and not be restless all the time. Please find time to comfort your friends when they need you, words may not be as effective but at least they'll know that you are there for them.

I did not do this thread to get attention. I just had to let it out, I'm just too scared of what might happen in the future. I can never ptedict it, but I'm still fighting.