Hey cisgender followers: Be careful how you interact with the following thread. I'm just a bit fragile and a tactless remark would be unfortunate.

Trans followers: I'm fucking TERRIFIED of the trans community. Y'all will lob the most insane, heinous accusations about people 1/11

casually and just ... stir shit up. Don't like someone? You can't just say they're annoying. You can't just turn your nose up and just hold it in like normal goddamn people. You fling these insane accusations at each other. "You're a fascist" "You're a kinkshamer" etc. 2/11

Y'all are scary fucking abusive to each other. I've joked about it before, but it's getting ridiculous. We're like the fucking Jacobins with picrew avatars. And honestly, I'm dead certain that if the online trans community COULD have people murdered, they absolutely would. 3/11

Please joke more about guillotines while trying in earnest to ruin someone's life because you took shit they said out of context. That'll really placate everyone. Although, guillotine fetishists aside, libs aren't immune to this shit either. I get that we're all traumatized 4/11

from life lived in a society that fucking hates us, but jesus christ fucking chill. You're all like wolves just waiting to get the chance to be the fucking bully. You're like dogpile fetishists. This community seriously needs to fucking re-evaluate how it deals with people 5/11

My greatest dream is to make a living as a published author. I don't talk about it much because I really don't ever think I'll manage it. But sometimes when delusion finally takes me, I instead end up at night having to fight off the intrusive waking nightmares of being 6/11

taken apart by a faceless mass of "my own people" who just want to destroy a "bad person" to get some fleeting sense of agency in a life that feels completely deprived of it. I've got Bad Opinions according to the community at large. I've been told so often enough. 7/11

So as soon as I trip the emnity trigger of someone with more followers than me? My life is over and my dream is crushed just as it's starting (at least in the nightmares). The publisher pulls my book and wants their advance - that I've already spent on student loans - back. 8/11

It's a ridiculous nightmare, but it comes from a real fear of my community. A community should have your back, but I really don't think y'all would. Some might, until a Twitter mob asks you to disavow ever liking me. "Block the persona non grata or you're just as bad!" 9/11

And it hasn't happened to me or anyone I know on a LARGE scale, but I've seen micro versions happen to people I know and talk to on here and I've seen what happens to trans creators who say the wrong thing. We don't GET to apologize. We don't get to move on. And it's awful 10/11

So I guess what I'm saying is, I'm not quite sure if I'll ever fully feel at home anywhere. There aren't many trans people in cis spaces, and I just don't know if I'll ever feel safe in online queer communities until something changes. Sorry about all this. I had to vent. 11/11

Addendum: If you feel called out by this thread, I honestly might be talking about you. I won't discuss any one case alone. If the above makes you hate me, want to block me, etc. then go ahead. If not liking online hate-mobs is that straw, then I don't want you in my life. 12/11