i have been spending more and more time trying to be patient with myself and pay attention to my feelings these days

first thing i noticed is i have a tendency to be pushy and i actually hate that about myself and it comes from my need to fix things myself when in reality a lot of the time i need to just breathe and relax and let things happen

hypocritical things have also been sending my blood pressure up like crazy these days. i can feel my blood pumping in my head when someone does something hypocritical

i have always been a leave people alone type of person, but when bullshit happens i can’t. i’m trying to teach myself to leave the bullshit alone too. address it and then put it down.

i have been trying to control my reactions so much more now because i learnt that not everyone deserves a reaction, some just deserve silence

and it’s better to use the silence, because people don’t care

some people will attempt to all use your silence against you. i’m trying to find the inner peace in me to be able to watch that happen and let it be water off a ducks back

i am responsible for me and my reactions, at all times.