listen pals. I’m 25 y/o. I eat well. I’m not in terrible shape. outwardly, I’m a young, healthy grad student. I also had heart surgery when I was 6 MONTHS old. I go to the cardiologist every year. I take antibiotics when I go to the DENTIST so I don’t get a blood infection.

the only time since march I’ve left my apartment grounds was last sunday to adopt my cat. I’m fucking terrified of COVID’s inexplicable cardiovascular symptoms.

the anxiety abt my heart has come in waves over the years—some good years, some bad—& sometimes that anxiety is debilitating. this year, sometimes just picking up a package outside my door can send me into a tailspin.

watching america deal with this problem—my god. I can’t trust other people to stay healthy so I can stay healthy. I can’t trust anyone. I guess I’m saying: I miss you, I miss my life, & also I cannot go to campus this fall, I can’t, I can’t, I need to leave this country.

(I am not announcing that I’m dropping out of school lmaooooo simply being dramatic. except needing to leave this country 2021 I’m renewing my irish passport)

ADDENDUM :: this thread is as much a call to kindness as it is personal complaint. you really don’t know who has underlying conditions. just bc the “leaders” “of” “this” “country” say you can leave your home doesn’t mean you should.

please stop going outside for a single month so I (& so many others) can leave my house this year :) please think abt what someone’s abundance of caution might be signaling abt their personal (& private) circumstances :) nighty night!