Less than 30 days until ex and kids depart, and I'm utterly fucking destroyed on the inside but trying to hold it together until it's over. My surgery was delayed until August, and I have no one to help me recover. This life really sucks sometimes. Everyone just keeps leaving.

Apologies up front if I'm not myself for a little while. I'm at the climax where everything that’s been building up is about to smash me in the face one last time.

I can at least say that I'm looking forward to the 100% closure and ability to finally 100% move forward with life.

I can't process past trauma accumulated in my life that literally started at 8 when I told family I was a girl. How can I when I'm constantly dealing with new trauma from rejection or needing their own lives (divorce) ever since coming out and transitioning?

I'm just tired.

This thread may seem weird for newer followers, but I’ve always been very open here about my rejection and emotional struggles. Even though it feels a little weird with 25K+ followers, I think it's an important part of my mission to humanize the trans experience for my followers.