Less than 30 days until ex and kids depart, and I& #39;m utterly fucking destroyed on the inside but trying to hold it together until it& #39;s over. My surgery was delayed until August, and I have no one to help me recover. This life really sucks sometimes. Everyone just keeps leaving. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">

Apologies up front if I& #39;m not myself for a little while. I& #39;m at the climax where everything that’s been building up is about to smash me in the face one last time.

I can at least say that I& #39;m looking forward to the 100% closure and ability to finally 100% move forward with life.

I can& #39;t process past trauma accumulated in my life that literally started at 8 when I told family I was a girl. How can I when I& #39;m constantly dealing with new trauma from rejection or needing their own lives (divorce) ever since coming out and transitioning?

I& #39;m just tired. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😓" title="Gesicht mit kaltem Schweiß" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit kaltem Schweiß">

This thread may seem weird for newer followers, but I’ve always been very open here about my rejection and emotional struggles. Even though it feels a little weird with 25K+ followers, I think it& #39;s an important part of my mission to humanize the trans experience for my followers.