CW: ABUSE/NONCON/HARASSMENT/PREDATORY BEHAVIOUR

@/SwordsnFlowers

I don't know how many times I can go through this

I've been through my fair share of abusers but to know that someone you care about and have worked closely with has been doing equally bad or even worse things
You confessed half-truths to me, tearfully saying you fucked up and needed to take accountability and that you need to take time off from game design

I'm been wrestling with this since you told me a week ago

Feeling pain

I talked about this with a friend who's known you since
young. It has wholly confirmed the the suspicions lurking at the back of my mind... and then some more

This is bad

This is really fucking bad

But now i realized why you wanted to keep things on the down low and why you delivered the news before one of your victims spoke out
It's because you wanted to control the narrative

I see that now

And yet, you say you were not aware but how can someone socially-conscious, liberal as you NOT KNOW WHEN YOU HAVE A FUCKING PATTERN OF PREDATORY BEHAVIOUR IN FRONT OF YOUR OWN FUCKING FACE
You make your rounds and tell everyone about what you've done but YOU'VE CHANGED THE NARRATIVE and guess what

I thank the FUCKING LORD that I've been abused before because now I SEE EVERYTHING IN PLAIN SIGHT

YOU DON'T GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVE
YOU DON'T GET TO MAKE ME FEEL SORRY FOR YOU

And the worst part really is that I trusted you and stood with you over all sorts of bullshit only to find out you've done WORSE things than my abusers

In retrospect, I'm not surprised, you've been dominating and manipulative
to the point of triggering some of my old trauma

But hey I looked past it and gave you the benefit of a doubt because I DON'T KNOW YOU WERE NICE TO ME AND SUPPORTED ME

But hey, apparently all that was performative... you Twittersona and all

You have no excuse
Funny how so many people are being outed as abusers nowadays... almost like the universe or God or some shit is telling us HEY WAKE UP

DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES I HAVE BEEN MANIPULATED TRUST ME YOU HAD THAT BEHAVIOUR BUT I OVERLOOKED IT
Words cannot describe my hurt and anger. I'm already in a bad state of mind and here you come.

Ya'll want proof right? Fuckit always best to believe the victimsBCTHATSWHATYOUSAID

I'm sorry Im emotional

I'm sorry for all of this

I'm sorry I can't go into details of what you've
done because it's not my story nor do I want to out your victims

But to know that your behaviour has extended since college and that you've used queerness, enbyness, and progressive ideals as a smokescreen to fuck around and excuse your behaviour
OH YES LOOK AT ME I'M POLYAMOROUS AND SEXUALLY FREE but let me go out of my way to hang about free/liberal spaces to GET SOME SWEET PUSS and coerce vulnerable women into FUCKING YOU

Oh sure, you've confessed... or have you boasted and twisted the tale???
An abuser did that to me once.

Now it's all rushing back.

You told me you didn't know.

How could you not know when you policed what other people did?

How could you not know they could not consent?

How could you not know it was a breach of ethics?

How could you not know it
was not consensual and instead manipulation?

How did you not look at all the cases of assault and predatory behaviour and manipulation and domination and even stop to consider what you were doing?

FOR YEARS BEN

I WORKED WITH YOU AND WE HELPED EACH OTHER

ALL THAT TIME
OH LOOK AT ME COMMUNITY LEADER OPINION LEADER BIG PUSHER OF LIBERAL IDEOLOGY HOW COULD YOU NOT KNOW

Looking back it all makes sense... I never saw the worst of it, only the faint ghostly wisps leaking through your liberal, toxic masculine facade

All that talk
All those small things you did to put me and my friends down, especially the person I care about the most when she rejected your advances

You don't fuck with me and you don't fuck with those I care about and you don't fuck with me and lie to me and present someone else
YOU DONT GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVE YOU DONT GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVEYOU DONT GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVEYOU DONT GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVEYOU DONT GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVEYOU DONT GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVEYOU DONT GET TO CONTROL THE NARRATIVE
All your work is TAINTED I'm jujst fucking glad we never got around to collabing and GOD KNOWS WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF YOU DID WHAT YOU DID TO ONE OF MY FEMALE FRIENDS

You sicken me

and yet

even with your secrets confessions
even with your long voice messages

you can't unfuck what you've done

all the microaggressions

all the lies

all the superficiality

I'm not sorry

You crossed the line and I'm so sorry I didn't know sooner or didn't do anything

But I'm doing something now

(PS block him)
Apologies to the parties affected, to those that thought we should wait for the right time, for an official statement, for something...

But this is between him and me

I'm done.
there was never a right time for this
Guys what the fuck

I drew this card literally a few hours before this happened https://twitter.com/BabblegumSam/status/1279087922239528960?s=20
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