Being oversexulized since I was 14 on a stupid lip syncing app truly changed the way I live my life. I’m starting to realize how I’ve continued sexualizing myself because it’s the only way I got attention or praise as a kid (14). This sucks.

And even when I am given the opportunity to be with really great people who want more from me that my body or sex, I am unable to reciprocate. I continue to only see my self worth in myself as a sexual being.

I still to this day am more uncomfortable with romance than sexuality and it scares me.

And if this thread doesn’t explain the impact of putting young woman in a spotlight where they are constantly praised for being sexual, I don’t know what does. My “spotlight” was small and I will carry over this trauma for the rest of my life.