i hate the idea that saying “i love you” a lot and to lots of people is diluting it, like i really mean it and i hope everyone ive said that to knows i love them a lot and would do a lot for them and think of them a lot

i worry is that im not loving enough people well enough and i fret that people don’t see how much i love them and i know i love very imperfectly and fail a lot but it is my best and it’s love and i have a lot and i do mean it and i don’t say it lightly. love is a burden and gift

i often think i need help finding ways to love better and somehow love in a way that is whole and warm while loving people enough to invest in holding them accountable and i have no answers and just know that the more i think on it, the more i just love people, whatever that is