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I've been posting about my story for 18 months. But I've never actually put it out there fully.
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I was raped on Ft Hood by an active duty soldier. Ft Hood CID failed me in every aspect. I got my rape kit done. Then after sleeping for 36 hours, I reported my assault.
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I was raped on Ft Hood by an active duty soldier. Ft Hood CID failed me in every aspect. I got my rape kit done. Then after sleeping for 36 hours, I reported my assault.
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I informed them I was coming in so they could have a female representative ready. They didn't, and I had to wait over 90 minutes. During this time, I wouldve lost my nerve if my best friend hadn't been by my side. I gave my statement the first time at the station.
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When they finally got a woman there, they had me go to the actual CID building. There, they separated my friend and I so we could give our stories separately. I had to take MANY breaks, because telling my story for the third time that day was exhausting.
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Once I finally had finished telling my story, they had me go into a non-recorded room and CALL MY RAPIST. They wanted to "see what he said" when I confronted him. They knew they couldn't use this in court as itd be considered hearsay.
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To this day, I can still hear him telling me "I enjoyed it. Not sure why you didn't." And "Did you not want it? I enjoyed tearing you up"
Its important to know that the ER Dr had told me I had tears comparable to childbirth from my rape. And he told me he ENJOYED it.
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Its important to know that the ER Dr had told me I had tears comparable to childbirth from my rape. And he told me he ENJOYED it.
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Hearing that was almost more traumatic than my actual rape. Almost. To this day, I can still hear it. It reverberates in my head on my low days and is an echo on my good days.
He fucking enjoyed it.
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He fucking enjoyed it.
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I asked for a Military Protection Order when I reported it 29 Oct. I got my order of protection 22 JANUARY.
THATS 85 DAYS WHERE HE COULD CONTACT ME. HE COULD SHOW UP AT MY DOOR. HE COULD DO ANYTHING
And to them, it didn't matter. One CID Agent told me i was overreacting
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THATS 85 DAYS WHERE HE COULD CONTACT ME. HE COULD SHOW UP AT MY DOOR. HE COULD DO ANYTHING
And to them, it didn't matter. One CID Agent told me i was overreacting
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Im taking a break from this thread for a moment. Ill finish it when I'm ready
My ex boyfriend, who was supposed to be my friend at the time, was in the other room. He let it happen. He even told CID I asked for it.
I was drunk. I was drugged. I could not have consented. NO. MATTER. WHAT.
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I was drunk. I was drugged. I could not have consented. NO. MATTER. WHAT.
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My rapist and his wife told CID I had consented before multiple times. Which is ENTIRELY false. I had never. And I would never. Thats just not me.
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I met with prosecutors in my safe place later on. She brought with her a male and female aide. Ive never felt more ashamed than telling my story in front of this male. But he told me he believed me. She believed me. But the issue was proving it in a court of law.
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All because of Ft Hood CID and their incompetence.
So I believe, with my whole heart, they have and will continue to fuck up the case for #VanessaGuillen
So I believe, with my whole heart, they have and will continue to fuck up the case for #VanessaGuillen
Im one of the lucky ones. I survived. Im healing. I will continue to heal for the rest of my life. This is now part of my story, but I refuse to have it be the main chapter.
Im strong because I had strong women to support me.
I will be that support for any woman that needs it.
Im strong because I had strong women to support me.
I will be that support for any woman that needs it.
My DMs are always open. I have resources for those in Texas if anyone needs them.
If one person had stood up for me, I never would've been raped.
If one person had done their job better, I could've gotten justice.
If one person had said "zero tolerance means ZERO tolerance" my rapist wouldn't have reenlisted and have orders to Hawaii.
ONE PERSON
If one person had done their job better, I could've gotten justice.
If one person had said "zero tolerance means ZERO tolerance" my rapist wouldn't have reenlisted and have orders to Hawaii.
ONE PERSON
Be that one person.
SPEAK UP. I dont have to be someones sister, daughter, mother, or wife to matter.
I.
Am.
Someone.
SPEAK UP. I dont have to be someones sister, daughter, mother, or wife to matter.
I.
Am.
Someone.
A few last things;
Don't use my story to make a political statement.
The support I've received is overwhelming
I will not be naming him at this time. I am not protecting him, I'm protecting myself.
Also if you see something, say something.
Gnight yall. Stay safe.
Don't use my story to make a political statement.
The support I've received is overwhelming
I will not be naming him at this time. I am not protecting him, I'm protecting myself.
Also if you see something, say something.
Gnight yall. Stay safe.
Processing my thoughts on the responses:
I had some AMAZING supporters who were active duty. More were outraged than complacent. Few let me down. Those that did were unfortunately in the position to have the greatest impact in my case.
I had some AMAZING supporters who were active duty. More were outraged than complacent. Few let me down. Those that did were unfortunately in the position to have the greatest impact in my case.
My story is NOT to be used to push your agenda. It is MY story and if you can't respect that, then kindly&Quickly leave it alone.
I do NOT regret reporting my rape. I dont regret fighting for myself. I don't regret getting my voice back. Id do it again even w the same outcome
I do NOT regret reporting my rape. I dont regret fighting for myself. I don't regret getting my voice back. Id do it again even w the same outcome
